``It's all in my heart...all along.``

2010-06-21T14:08:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYEOWOOK OPPA!!! :D

The eternal maknae with the sweetest smile and voice has finally turned a year older. Hope you had one fine spring birthday!! :D

Love U More... ^o^

2010-06-04T22:02:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOOCHUN! :D

You're a year older (again~), but you'll always be one of ma favourite rappers ever. Keep rocking on Mickayyyy >:D

Don't pull Jae's long hair will ya? ^^

Wishing you good health and luck and hope you had a happy day. Always keep the faith (:

2010-05-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps, guess won't be updating my blog. Not sure if it's forever, but it'd be a long time since I'll blog again. Even if I will update, it'd be during Dong Bang Shin Ki or Super Junior's birthdays. Haha, not emo-ing, just that I'd prefer short updates on Twitter and Facebook than blogging one whole post out x) Gotten lazy already, haha. Anyway, if you'll miss me (lol), here are my accounts:

Find me on Facebook with "Dongbang Junior"

Twitter: (follow me! (: )
www.twitter.com/sjshinki

2010-05-02T17:52:00.001+08:00

Had a blast yesterday! My wish of seeing TVXQ's Junsu is finally fulfilled ^o^ Junho rocked too! :D Will type the fan account another time, too lazy to do it now HAHA.

2010-04-24T00:14:00.002+08:00

As usual, long time of no updates -.- So gonna update for anyone who misses me (haha), a pretty mundane post though. Just a few updates here and there...

Today was a crazy day...it started from the beginning of school but I shall skip it, shall talk about after school instead! Went home with Siying and her junior...and she saw Mr Teo (our POA teacher) in the car. WE JUST SAW HIM IN THE LRT TRAIN LIKE YESTERDAY?! Weirdo.

During English lesson, some guy came in and needed some of us (including me) to go to the dentist...zzz. Cos Ms Kuek didn't want anyone to interrupt the lesson, she "lied", "Go tell the dentist we're having a test now!" LOL. We went down the second time he came in, around 12.20pm. Then it was just to make a lame appointment...AT 3.30PM.

Who in the right mind would want to stay for 3 hours just for fillings in the teeth?! Duhhh, so I was obviously irritated, but cos I was so nice I obliged. Then Ms Kuek kinda symphetized with my situation and followed me to the dentist and told him..

I wasn't feeling well. HAHAHA. Nice white lie isn't it? The dentist thought she was my mother and she was like "-.- do I look that old". Nah you don't Ms Kuek, haha! Just that the dentist thought no teacher would be so caring as you to change a dentist appointment for a student...just to prevent wasting her time. Anyway thanks teach! (; I got to go home right after school :D

So much homeworks for the weekend. MYE MYE MYE...sigh.

Anyway I went crazy when I saw someone in school holding Teens mag - SUPER JUNIOR IS ON THE COVER WHOOOOOOOOOO! They were on U-Weekly a few weeks ago too :D Teenage gave a SJ-M poster too! Oh oh Cheryl and I were at Sun Plaza's magazine stand (where I buy most of my mags from) and she told me Teenage was giving out SJ-M's free poster. After I bought it immediately smiling like an idiot cos I was so happy, I opened the mag to the middle page and when we saw the poster, we were screaming, "DONGHAE! RYEOWOOK! AHHHH" when we were crossing the road. Hahaha fangirling took over us!

It's a bit weird with the sudden craze though, cos SJ didn't release any new songs or anything. Perhaps it's cos they're releasing a new album next month or Super Show II has ended? The fan account inside the mag was ddaebak - envy the writer so much T.T

Although their fourth album won't have a full 13...but I hope as many members will participate.

2010-04-22T20:50:00.001+08:00

What exactly are humans doing to Earth...?

2010-04-11T18:48:00.002+08:00

Seems like people don't know the meaning of "gratitude".

They better reflect on their actions before I turn my back on them.

They leave me alone to go home after school. They stop replying my messages and initiate to hang up during phone calls.

I was there for them. I accompanied them in their times of need. What about me? Where's their conscience? Do they know my feelings?

I tried my best to understand their positions. Now I had ENOUGH.

2010-04-04T22:24:00.002+08:00

TVXQ's name just got mentioned on Yes933 for clinching first on Oricon and I was jumping in joy.

But I was crying in sadness over the suspension of activities in Japan news an hour ago. And I don't think I've recovered from the shock.

I couldn't taste anything in my mouth when eating after crying. Must be from excessive crying.

Always keep the faith. It's tiring, it's long, and it's heartbreaking, but we must continue. Come on Cassies, show antis, non TVXQ fans and our beloved TVXQ what we've got.

Let's Stop Time playing now.

We can hardly see any hope, but there's always a glimpse as long as the name TVXQ still exists.

Their beautiful music touched our souls. Brought us away from reality. It's time for us to do something for our gods - the five of them with unimaginable soulful harmony.

We love you - Yunho, Changmin, Jaejoong, Yoochun, Junsu. We always will. We will wait for you.

As if being in a hurry

Constellations of the summer

Will incline to the valley of building and hide

In our everyday that passes by

There are times we almost cry over little things

Although that shop which you wanted to go before is gone already

Any day, we’ve believed that our love will never end

I want to stop time and be by your side all the time

To the sky that I looked up

I made a wish and

While connecting the shiny stars one by one

I was looking for your silhouette

I couldn’t tell you that I loved you smoothly and

Our inexperienced love quivered at the beach

Our eyes which awkwardly met

Felt that the moment we had was too precious to even blink

Although the vow we wrote on the sand disappeared immediately by the pulling waves

At that time, we believed that our love would never change

I want to stop time and be by your side all the time

I want to embrace you more

While remembering about you one by one

I believed in only eternity

I want to stop time and be by your side all the time

To the sky that I looked up

I made a wish and

While remembering about you one by one

I was looking for your silhouette

I want to stop time and be by your side all the time

I want to embrace you more

While remembering about you one by one

I believed in only eternity

2010-04-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVELY HYUKJAE!!! ♥

4th April; your special day.

My favourite member of Super Junior, Lee Hyukjae.

This is my first post and time wishing you a happy birthday. Hope you've enjoyed your day! Don't be too upset about Hangeng going agaisnt SM, ELF will always support Super Junior as one (:

Wow, I can still remember how you captured my heart in Goong T and Sorry Sorry MV. The badass smirks, evil glares, the hilarious NGs, cute birthday celebration. The slick dancing, hot moves and waves, piercing stare...ahhhh. That's my sexay Hyukjae.

You've turned a year older. Pick a leaf from hubby Jaejoong's book and treat me better alright ;D

The memories are beautiful, never let you go

Love ya my boy ♥ Happy birthday! :D

2010-03-28T17:55:00.003+08:00

Wow, really long time of no updates! It's either I'm too lazy or my computer hates my Internet adapter - sometimes it restarts after I plug it in -.- So sorry for the lack of updates!!

I shall start off with holidays? Haha xD

Monday
Went to dance studio with Rachel. Danced and sang a bit of here and there...and we forgot to camwhore -.- I brought my bulky CD player along, it was soooo heavy but glad it was of some use :D Taught her a bit of dances like Genie & It's You! We recorded Blue Tomorrow and I borrowed some SJ CDs from Rachel (: Looking forward to going out with her again, but I think it'd be June holidays which are still pretty far away -.-

Tuesday

Shopped at Plaza Singapura and Suntec City with Siying! Ate at Swensens :D All the walking is a bit tiring but it's fun xD

Wednesday

Practised at home for the audition on Friday.

Thursday

Had a last-minute message from Edwina that there was a 2E1'09 class gathering...I was like o.o but still went anyway. It might be a good time to catch up with each other (: We wore the same blouse, lol! It's of different colour though.

Only half the class was there but it was good enough..if not I'd wonder how would the MRT train and Seoul Restaurant@Northpoint fit us in xD Here's the list of us:

Edwina, Mircia, Jiamin, Farah, Shahidah, Norita, Yun Kuan, Sinead, me, Hng Meng, Zhi Bing, Terry, Zhi Wei, Guan Ming, Yu Zhi, Shawn, Derek and Clement.

I was wearing my CNY blue Paris top and hot pink skinny jeans..and Derek said, "Ah, very nice". Erm, haha? xD We took like 2 hours to eat...all thanks to the boys who couldn't stop eating -.- There was ice-cream served too! After that, we visited the arcade and kinda gathered to play House of the Dead 4. Miss the game, lol. Our combined forces led us to the end of the game :D

On the way home in the MRT train, Terry suggested to go to the movies at Lot 1. It's gonna be kinda late and I wanted to save money, so I skipped the movie, but I joined in their discussion anyway. Farah also needed to return home so we walked home together (: Didn't take any pictures for the day cos Edwina, Mircia and Jia Min didn't wanna take neos T.T

Friday

THE NERVE-WRECKING DAY. It was so horrible, but thanks Siying for accompanying me throughout the day! :D

Made some new friends there! The venue was at Orchard Cineleisure's KBOX. We were led into the VIP room..aka the waiting room, so honoured xD They told us to choose songs from the system to practise first before going into the audition room. All of us were so shy at first cos we have to sing in front of other contestants, but we started singing after a few brave ones started off.

My group of friends and I chose SJ's It's You..the instrumental was so weird but it felt good to see them on screen ;D

They called us to line up outside the audition room in batches of 3. I swore my heart nearly jumped out of my mouth while waiting and was totally nervous in the room. So nervous that I messed up the lyrics and I knew one thing for sure in that instant - I'm not gonna be listed ): The judges didn't look very impressed with me either. And I was right...it's okay though, Mum bought me a new Sony Ericsson phone that evening :D Anyway, one of the three who got in was so bitchy, AND WHAT'S MORE SHE'S A TVXQ FAN. Please, don't embarrass TVXQ or their fans by being so bitchy or saying you love them, it's an absolute embarrassment. Tsk.

When the system played TVXQ's songs, the WHOLE of us cheered - We're all Cassies! :D

Oh, while we all gathered to wait for the results, I went shopping with Siying a little bit and I bought a box of doughnuts and this:

SHINee's version of Mamee xD There were other members too, but cos there wasn't much time for me to choose, so I just picked the packet with 2 members on the packet..and that's Key and Onew :D

Went to Universal Studios on Sunday with Clifford, Cheryl and their Dad! Their mum was overseas so they gave me the last ticket - thanks so much! :D On Saturday night, went to stay overnight at their house. Chatted quite a bit with Cheryl & Clifford and also watched some SJ DVDs. They were pretty curious with my new phone though ._.

Had lots of fun the next day! Shall not elaborate much here, photos and words at on Facebook (:

2010-03-14T23:45:00.003+08:00

This gorgeous man here took my breath away and left me breathless.

HOLIDAYS HAVE ARRIVED!!!!!!!

Along with tons of homework, darn it. I forgot to go to school on Friday cos my alarm didn't ring and my Mum didn't wake me up..sigh. I wanted to have perfect attendance -.-

Have quite a lot of plans for this week, but it's just all meet-ups with friends like Rachel, Siying & Cheryl and stuff. Can't wait to go dance studio with Rachel tomorrow!! And maybe bring her to see Super Junior@Star King at the night market before we go? Lol xD

Watched Kaiji with Cheryl last Friday - pretty awesome movie though Cheryl said, "I want to get excited but I didn't!" I let her feel my sweating palms at one scene where they had to walk on some plank from a building to another *palms sweat again* I heard we're going to do that for PE next semester, but it's a much safer version than that HAHA. Can't wait to try it! :D

Basically, if you wish to know, that movie is just about gambling and all. Tatsuya Fujiwara (male lead) acts as a genius again, he's always the smartie in like all his movies! (Death Note, no?) There's Kenichi Matsuyama (Death Note's L) too! Love seeing the both of them unite in another movie, but they are friends here - exact opposite from Death Note. Might be too fresh and different for DN fans xDThe movie was pretty long though, which I like cos I hate short movies...imagine the duration for the same price as a long one? But it all depends on the plot too, haha.

My hubby is gonna star in a Japanese drama - Sunao ni Narenakute ! And the cast also has Juni Ueno, the second female lead from Gugu the Cat! Loved her character in the movie (: Jaejae's gonna act as a doctor..bet he's gonna ask for some F&N knowledge from me, muahahaha.

I missed listening to Ha Ben Ying today damn it!!! Cos I was so busy practising Genie that I forgot ): Audition this Friday. OMG SO EXCITING!!! Rachel might be going with me too! Quest told participants to prepare a fast song and a slow song. At first my choices were:

Fast:
1) SNSD - Gee
2) SNSD - Genie
3) TVXQ - Mirotic
4) Super Junior - It's You

Very few choices for fast songs...there were more but these were my main ones. So I decided on Genie cos male bands' dances are soooo difficult and Gee might be too common until the judges are sick of us performing that song, haha.

Slow:

1) Super Junior KRY - The One I Love
2) Super Junior KRY - Let's Not
3) Super Junior M - Blue Tomorrow
4) Super Junior - She's Gone
5) TVXQ - One
6) TVXQ - Unforgettable
7) And a whole lot of other TVXQ songs

Yeah all male groups' choices this time, haha! Much as I'd love to, I didn't choose TVXQ's songs in the end cos I find their songs really hard to sing ): Even those songs which sound simple like Hug, I can't sing them as well as SJ's. Wow, the power of Asia's best voices xD

I asked Rachel and Cheryl for advice and Cheryl said The One I Love, Rachel said Blue Tomorrow...and I asked them to choose again and both of them chose Let's Not. The only problem is I still can't remember the lyrics very well! I'm pretty confident for Genie, now I have to practise more on Let's Not. Rehearsing with Rachel tomorrow :D

There're so many rounds of auditions and I doubt I'll even pass the first round -.- But I'll try my luck and give my best..and even if I pass, I won't be recruited into Honey cos I'm underage haha. They'll consider the good underage ones for the next band :D Hwaiting Joreen!

Teukie: I'm praying for you! ^^

Been watching/re-watching a lot of live performances to prepare myself how to perform live. So I was watching SJ's Sorry Sorry/It's You perfs and I went mad over Hyukkie's hot chest-pumping parts and drooling watching him half-stripping at those o-o-only for you parts OMG!!! And there was one SS perf where Sungmin placed his leg on Shindong's lap = COOL TO THE MAX. SJ is love! ^o^

Going crazy over this gif nowadays! O-o-only for Hyuk ♥

2010-03-07T17:31:00.004+08:00

Hey hey hey! Wow, almost a week of no updates...

Darn Mixpod, their videos keep getting deleted or something and the music won't play, so I have to keep searching for new songs. Need a new player!!!

I have lots of things to update, so whatever I'm gonna type now depends on my memory, haha xD

Just finished watching Let's Go Dream Team...no Minho this time, but finally I see my much-missed Hyukjae! At the night market just now, they were playing Star King and I SAW LEETEUK OMG!!! SJ's so popular ^o^ Planning to go again tomorrow cos I didn't have time to finish watching...

I decided to ask Rachel and Cheryl to pair each other up with members of Super Junior. Both of them had the same answer and I was so surprised...
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They know my favourite member is Hyukkie so I doubted they'll pair me up with him..and I was right -.-

Aww baby Hyukkie don't be disappointed, you're still my beloved fav in my eyes ^o^

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(Oh no away with the crab or whatever please) SUNGMIN! ^o^

I thought, "Did they plan before telling me the answer? No wait, they don't know each other at all!" OMG lol. Couple faces? xD *gets slapped* Then Cheryl replied,

"Told u sungmin is compatible with u :) "

And Rachel said,

"Haha! Only sungmin more compatible for you. The rest all cant."

*Chuckles*

*Happy happy*

Am downloading videos now but they're so slow. Must be cos of the lack of memory, lol. Super Adonis Camp, EHB, Intimate Note...oh, Cheryl, Clifford and I were watching Super Girl and Blue Tomorrow MVs on my DVD and we were all like singing to them, lol. We also had dinner together at Mac ^^

Can't wait for the holidays, one more school week and one more Maths level test to go! I have a line of people asking me out already *gets bashed* Can't wait to visit the dance studio with Rachel and shopping with Cheryl! :DDD

Anyway some random photos now, pretty old but take your time to enjoy them :D

Wow, this boy never fails to seduce.

CHOOSE ME BABEY, ahhh. *turns on TVXQ's Choosey Lover*

"Ready Joreen darling?"
"Hell yeah."
*Hops onto bed*

2010-02-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

They have such a grand K-pop history that it would be a shame to label them even as legends.

- Korean Cassiopeian

Always keep the faith.

2010-02-28T17:32:00.003+08:00

Goodbye, Jay Park.

All the best for your future, no matter living quietly in Seattle or making it solo there.

People, stop wanting to know what Jaebeom did if you really wish to protect him. Darn you, how the hell are you related to him? Just a nobody he'll NEVER know in person, face it. Respect 2PM's and Jaebeom's privacy.

I am a fan, but I know my own limits. I never called myself a Hottest from the start, I am just a simple fan who gushes over them. It's a different case for Super Junior and TVXQ, and sorry for bringing them up though this is completely nothing to do with them. Why don't I call myself a Hottest?

Cos I didn't break down when I heard Jay officially left. It's tremendously heartbreaking, yes, but not to the extent that I'll drop tears. In fact, they've never made me shed a single tear before. What I did at most was to join the "silent" protest in Orchard last year, when just cos I was free and NOT EVEN A FAN yet. That's all. Who am I to call myself a Hottest?

So, stop boycotting and let all seven of them live in peace please. Till then, I sincerely wish Jaebeom, Junsu, Junho, Taecyeon, Nichkhun, Chansung and Wooyoung all the best in whatever they do in future.

2010-02-25T00:04:00.004+08:00

Hi just a random update ^^

These days I feel like I'm going berserk soon. Thanks to all those who tried to help me to transfer money to Zuno's transfer though so many people backed out...and that stupid Mum of mine didn't allow me to go, same goes for my unhelpful family. When I queued overnight for SHINee's autograph session, they didn't care a hoot for my safety and didn't ask anything. Now that I need to spend quite a sum on the showcase ticket, they yell non-stop and make a big fuss.

People, wake up. IT'S MY MONEY! NOT YOUR BUSINESS!

Stop being so money-minded. If you don't want to help, shut up and get lost, stop spitting your saliva into my face. Do you think I'll accept what you yelled? NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING is stopping me from attending the showcase. If the TVXQ member(s) never come to Singapore again and I miss this chance, do you know how regretful I'll feel?

And then, who will I blame on? Ask yourself. Stop interfering in my business you assholes.

Anyway, sorry for troubling everyone and that apology does NOT include those who backed out at the last minute and refused to help. Those who at least tried to but didn't succeed, thank you very, very much and really sorry for the trouble. Rachel backed out at first but still helped me transfer in the end ^^

Now my worries are: To find an online friend to go and wait for Quest's confirmation email!

Oh, I passed my Maths re-level test, haha xD Can't really be bothered to elaborate the whole week, I'm freaking exhausted from all the persuading, rushing, calling, messaging etc these days...sigh. Half the battle over now!

Ahhh need to sleep now. No more heart attacks at least for the rest of this week please ):

2010-02-21T11:26:00.001+08:00

Tohoshinki's new song - With All My Heart. Made me cry at the first listen.

"Once again, I want to give my heart to you."

2010-02-15T12:07:00.002+08:00

You are completely beautiful
I just can’t be without you, girl
You are completely beautiful
I just can’t be without you, girl

I think of what we were like when I first met you
Your bashful smile, your shy words, your cold hands
I thought of you every day
I couldn’t do anything (almost going crazy)

Unable to turn my gaze away
Like a fool, I could only lose myself in you
I want to walk together with you for a lifetime
I will protect you, I love you, oh love

Cause you are so beautiful
Let me gasp against your lips, to say this phrase, “I love you”
Cause you are so beautiful
Just stay by my side (you belong only to me)

My beautiful, my beautiful, oh oh
It’s fine if time stops like this; it’s fine if we grow old
I love you, I love you, thank you, thank you
Occasionally, when there is a quarrel
I will cry as I kiss your lips

Cause you are so beautiful
Let me gasp against your lips, to say this phrase, “I love you”
Cause you are so beautiful
Just stay by my side (you belong only to me)

I’ve only given her my everything
I will love you forever, oh

Cause you are so beautiful
I want your lips to belong only to me
Cause you are so beautiful
I will never let go of these hands I hold so tightly

2010-02-15T11:09:00.004+08:00

Current music: Summer Dream - Tohoshinki

Bonjour, happy CNY everyone :D Wow, there're so many people from different countries visiting my blog...Germany, Malaysia, Brazil, Argentina, US, UK, Philippines, Canada...and Saudi Arabia?! Lol xD

Crapped around with Wang Jie, Arthur and Siying on Friday xD

I think this year's gonna be great...or at least this CNY. After I came back from Ah Ma's yesterday, the day has been great. My name got mentioned on Yes933 again!!! Cos I sent an email to suggest them to play THSK's Breakout...and Peifen mentioned my name along with other fans who sent emails too :D But maybe there was some technical error or there was no time..the song didn't play at all -.- While I'm trying my best to spread the TVXQ love, I thank them for making my name popular LOL. Was messaging Arthur all day too.

When I reached home I watched Attack of the Pin-up Boys, heheh.

Overdue photos!!!

Taken at CCK library two weeks ago with Kaihui and Siying :D

Taken with Siying, Wenhui & Cheryl (monkey muahaha) at Science Centre when Bio students were on a trip tp Body World (:

Taken during Chemistry practical - experimenting chromatography :D

Anyway I love March issue of Teenage not cos of SNSD's cover...SUPER JUNIOR IS FEATURED INSIDE!!! Over at the MMS section there's Nichkhun and TVXQ's pictures too!! All in one, lol.

Taken when Jaejoong hubby and I were on a vacation on Saturday~~~

Random...very very old TVXQ picture, they look so cute & young don't they? ^^ (Yunho-shii acting cute, muahaha)

Gonna go watch Bonjour Paris before I leave for big aunt's house later...:D

2010-02-07T14:14:00.006+08:00

Yo peeps, sorry for the lack of updates again -.- Will post a long entry today! :D After this, will update hubby's birthday post!

Have been staying back almost everyday last week, so tired T.T I would like to wish Yunho oppa & Siying a happy belated birthday! Lucky Siying, having the same birthday as your favourite member....

The best leader, with the best dancing, along with an undeniable charisma: Jung Yunho. You have just turned a year older as the manly leader of Asia's star TVXQ. All the best for your already shining career & may TVXQ always stay as one. Happy birthday to the person I respect most ^^

Went to Say Cheeze & Orchard to celebrate Siying's birthday (& literally Yunho~) yesterday! She ordered a raspberry-flavoured cake and me, as usual, ordered Cookie Monster:

My serving

Birthday girl's serving!

Then we went shopping for a while...it's more like some food mission cos we bought so much food to eat xD

And the moment we all have been waiting for....fanaccount on SHINee's autograph session last Sunday!!!

I skipped Alicia's birthday party this time because the autograph session is like a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and her parties are held every year, lol. Actually I'll much rather squeeze with others than having nothing to do & hear their horrible voices at the karaoke lounge...enough of that.

I was rushing here & there cos Maureen sunbae said we'll be going earlier..which was a superb idea cos I'm relieved we went there 2 hours earlier. If not I don't think we'll be in the first 1000? Haha! She called me when I was at the traffic light and told me to hurry cos the organisers are recording names already...got a shock and quickly ran there. The organiser said, "You very lucky arh!" xD Thanks Maureen sunbae for booking a seat for me & reminding me to bring more money for the album :D

The number of people was flabbergasting!!! I was sitting there doing nothing most of the time, trying to sleep too. There were cockroaches, eew -.- I was also busy messaging Rachel, Christina, Siying, Arthur & maybe a few others cos they were all curious...I wondered why Siying & Arthur were still up at that time though, lol. I called the other two to update them of the situation and chatted for a while too.

So my handphone battery went flat at 5am -.- Couldn't reply anyone, sorry all! Rachel kept saying I'm lucky to be able to reach so early & get into the first 1000, cos she didn't make it. Christina arrived at around 4am and was super shocked...went to find her in the long queue of people and chatted for a bit (:

Then around 10am was when we started moving up...at a super slow pace!!! Made some new friends & in our group along with Maureen sunbae & her friend, I was the only one younger than Taemin xD So Eileen was saying, "How should I call him?" I replied, "Taemin dongsaeng!" LOL, sounds awkward isn't it?

I'm glad people at the door didn't make it. Christina told me some people arrived much later than people in the queue in MADE IT INTO THE OPEN PLAZA?! Damn you guys. We all got very excited at the fire access stairs and when we stepped into the open plaza...

Sorry to the people sitting around me, my legs were super numb & I kept fidgeting Dx One of the fans was very nice and told me to just rest my leg on hers when there was no space for me to fully cross my legs. Thank you :D I actually fell asleep for a while too...and sorry for the dark photos, blame the lighting, lol.

I got Taemin's pass for the autograph and tried putting up notices to exchange for Key's...no luck ): But still had a great memory of Taemin's, more info later ;D

At around 1.50pm, we all felt our hearts could jump out of our mouths...

THE BOYS CAME OUT ON STAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't post the unclear photos...I don't think you wanna see them either, haha. Thanks Eileen for helping me to go like, 4 rows nearer? xD She got her favourite member Jonghyun's pass, congrats :D Also, I'm glad SHINee was earlier than I expected, I thought they'll arrive at like 2.30pm? 1.50pm was pretty punctual already x)

More photos from my view:

Stupid hand...

A CLEAR VIEW OF KEY LOOKING IN MY DIRECTION OMG!!! He looks so cute!! And a pretty clear view for the rest! ROFL at Minho talking to him!! Why did I take so many photos of them talking to each other?! I couldn't exactly see what I was taking in my camera, so close-ups like this are considered well-taken x)

Peifen was the host for the event, she's so cute trying to pronounce the members' names haha.

Then it's time for the autograph session! I didn't take a lot of photos here cos we were not allowed to...but I still secretly took a few :p

Gonna kill that woman some day...it could have been a clear close-up of Onew ):

MINHO MINHO MINHO!!! How's Hyukkie? xD

Lucky me caught a scene of Jonghyun (who was two seats away from Taemin) smiling at his fan, so cool of him!!

And finally, TAEMIN TIME!

When I reached his table, I swear I practically couldn't breathe cos I was so nervous, but I tried to keep a smile. Taemin smiled at me when:

1) I first appeared in front of him;
2) He finished signing the album & the organiser passed it back to me;
3) I said "Saranghae oppa!" (biggest smile compared to the rest!!)
4) I waved & left.

OMG SO MANY TIMES AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! *goes crazy* He looks pretty tired (poor thing) & the pen was pretty outta ink, but I'm glad it wasn't smudgable at all :DDD The third smile he gave kept appearing in my mind for the past whole week, ahhhh...

Christina said I'm lucky & congratulated me cos she was around the 1030th and didn't manage to see them ): Oh btw, Taemin is the first boy & person for me to say "I love you" directly to xD Then in order to cheer her up, I said at least she followed the rules & saw the live telecast, unlike the above fans, tsk. When Taemin was signing my album, I was wondering why he took such a long time.

Because he signed the whole cover. Okay lah, 3/4? :D I don't think the other members autographed this huge cos their pictures on the album are very small xD Only Taemin and Minho had big pictures (as you can see)...I think the other members didn't use the same type of pens too.

I went home after the event & after a small lunch, I knocked out even though I wanna stay up to catch the news & watch Let's Go Dream Team ): I only woke up at 11PM to quickly rush through my homework. So the next day I went to school...

And everyone came running up to me cos they were excited too! So I showed them my album...Wangjie, Arthur, Tanya, Siying, Edwina & some others I can't remember were kinda jealous cos they agreed the autograph was huge! Then I said, "Line up for 12 hours & you won't envy, lol" *gets bashed* Tanya was especially happy cos she likes Taemin and I got his auto ^^ Sadly, none of them caught last night's evening news ): I heard some schoolmates talking about the event but they didn't go...when they saw me taking out the album they stared at me ._.

Oh, the queue number on my hand (601) didn't get washed off until Tuesday xD

It was a wonderful Sunday excluding the unfair fans (: The rest of the week will be updated in another post :D

2010-01-26T20:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BITHDAY JAEJOONG HUBBY! :DDD

And happy belated birthday to 2PM's Junho ^^

~~No time to write a full birthday post, sorry oppas D: Will update asap!!!~~

UPDATED: 7/2

Wow this is one super late update ):

Saeng-il chukahamnida hubby :D Again, you're a year older, so must be more mature & be a better husband xD Sorry for not writing letters to you these few months, I was worried they might get thrown away or ignored..but you know I'll always be your fan (: Continue to impress people with your 4 brothers with your soulful voices! Love you ^^

You got me~Under your skin!

2010-01-23T15:05:00.004+08:00

~^.^~

Bought two new 2PM posters this week! Thanks Xueyao sunbae for introducing me the kiosk :D One poster fills up half of my wall, imagine how huge it is, wow. I just enquired them for another SJ poster but they haven't replied yet D: Hope they will do it soon!

Haven't been updating a proper post recently, too busy with school especially Entrepreneur, there're so many more commitments now. Anyway, Siying came over this morning to have breakfast & play badminton. Finally a decent workout xD Then she came over to watch Crayon Shinchan when I suddenly thought of watching Explorers..it's a show suitable for everyone :D Hope she's coming over tomorrow to watch the rest of the episodes!

Oh, a few other classmates and I were approached by Miss Kuek (our hilarious English teacher) to participate in a debate...much as I wanna build up my skills, Entrepreneur comes first, lol.

Imitating Junsu's pose? xDD Sorry for the blur photo, it was tiny & I expanded it..

Sure I will :D

Ahhh I have a few songs to introduce...

With English subs - very soothing ballad by 2AM. Even if I die, I can't let you go...doesn't this song just reminds Hottests about Jaebeom? ): And so sorry to 2AM for missing their comeback stage on MuBank yesterday, I was busy sleeping -.- I watched the live perf over the net and the stage is so pretty!!

Sorry for the late recommendation - Tohoshinki's Breakout! I love how Yoochun goes I keep praying Don't forget Baby we keep the faith eternally~

This song was pretty long ago if I'm not wrong...Yamapi's Loveless. Not a fan of Yamapi/JPop/NEWS but when I saw the MV on TV , it was instant love cos it's the kind of genre I like to listen to (middle-paced ballads, anyone? (; ). Idk why, but in some angles, Yamapi looks like Kim Hyun Joong, lol. I really like the piano melody.

I'm having a hard time choosing which new song is gonna be my next song in my blog xD

/PS. Too bad, you're already an eyesore to me.

2010-01-23T14:32:00.000+08:00

Anchovy of Asia - Eunhyuk.

2010-01-21T23:19:00.002+08:00

Yo peeps.

Gosh, have been busy keeping up work homework these days, no time to come online (and my Plurk karma has dropped a lot!!!) ): Lots of thanks to everyone who helped me with Maths - Siying, Arthur, Kaihui, Wang Jie...can't remember the rest xD And thanks to the guys in front of me who keeps me and Siying entertained by making us laugh+irritated at the same time!

Teens has SHINee on the cover! Haha and had no idea Arthur was interested in them and offered to buy it from me. So I relunctantly sold it to him at the exact price cos he doesn't want to go all the way to newsstands or whatever just to buy...and now I have to trouble myself again -.- Sent him Ring Ding Dong (SHINee, TVXQ, SJ, 2PM whoever, consider hiring me as your advertiser!) at the end of the day...and both of us tried sending to Wang Jie's phone too, but seems like his phone doesn't connect with ours, lol.

CCA meeting tomorrow. Think they're gonna choose the new managers and stuff..and heard me and Tanya are nominated -.- Ahhh darn, hopefully we won't be chosen, lol. Hyukkie hasn't been appearing on Let's Go Dream Team these few weeks ):

Good night now...oh wait, Dolphin Junsu please get well soon! :D

2010-01-16T20:15:00.004+08:00

OMG I think this blog is dead. Haha, either no time or too lazy to update, ps!

This weekend, I have three sets of Maths worksheets, one F&N worksheet, Chinese bao zhang bao dao and...I think that's all. NOT COMPLETED ANY OF THEM YET!!! Cos I was busy sleeping in the afternoons xD

Many more CCA meetings to attend now, sigh. And Mr M should seriously give an a DIRECT and STRAIGHT answer instead of leaving me and Tanya to think of what we should do! Zzzz. And OMG, Minhui has a Samsung Corby!!!!!!!!

I missed Music Bank yesterday cos I thought 2PM wouldn't appear. And damn it, THEY DID!!! Missed their last perf ): But nvm, I have 2AM to look forward to ^^ Here's their comeback teaser:

This seriously blew me away, it's too short a teaser. Can't wait for Jan 21! All the best for their comeback, hopefully they'll get more recognition! :D

Yesterday, me and Siying lunched at Kobayashi Hangul@Lot1. The one I ordered was pretty simple, with rice, egg, veggies, soup and all, but it was a filling lunch xD Looking forward to dine at more restaurants with her! Then at night, she came over and we tried playing Hotel 626 and Asylum 626, but because my comp was throwing tantrums during Asylum by lagging like heck and we entered the wrong age for Hotel, so we couldn't play ): We only watched the intro for Asylum. So we ended up playing other random games until we couldn't take the freaking lagginess anymore and proceeded to watching Wild Bunny, haha.

Have been going shopping a lot for clothes and stuff these days...okay, since last holiday, lol. Need to stop spending so much...

P/S. Happy belated birthday Junsu (Kim Bo Peep, lol)! :D And another belated birthday to Lee Seung Gi, 3 days after mine..the KPOP star closest to my birthday ^o^

P/P/S. Today is me and Jaejoong's one year wedding anniversary WOW! Time flies.

I think that woman should seriously reflect on herself. You're so old already, stop critisizing my fashion sense & look at yourself please! What business is it yours when I go out and return late? Go ahead, send someone to follow me. Why should I tell you where I am? Lower down your volume cos your voice is worse than my singing, tsk. Stop snatching my TV because you haven't finished your housework that I used to help you out to. Here's a huge thumbs down for you biased loser. I hate you.

2010-01-10T23:32:00.002+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday Joreen :D

~~Will edit/update this post soon~~, thanks for the wishes everyone ^^

UPDATED: 23/1/2010

Haha sorry for the super late post!!! A special huge thanks to Siying for spending the day with me (: Because it was a Sunday that day, the MRT trains are super packed -.- So we decided to take a bus home instead. Although the bus was much slower than the train, at least we had seats :D I wanted to nap in the bus, but there were too many malls & pretty places to sightsee, so I didn't fall asleep at all xD

Me and Siying on the bus ^^

We went to eat at our favourite restaurant Say Cheezeeeeeeeeee! Ahh speaking about it, I miss their food ): What's good about Somerset's 313 is our all-time fav music store HMV & the wonderful service Say Cheeze are right next to each other!!! <3 Then we went to shop around Orchard aimlessly, lol. Bought my new MP4 player that day and sad to say, it isn't working very well - navigations are slow, buttons are loud when pressed, at times there'll be problems while transferring my songs, quality not as good as my handphone's...sigh. And many more actually, but whatever, at least I can listen to many more songs now ^o^

2010-01-07T20:43:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps ^o^

Gonna watch the third last episode of Iris later. Sigh, it's ending soon = one less show to watch. 2PM's ending their promotions soon ): But awaiting for their comeback in April :D

Went to Lot1 with Kaihui and Siying yesterday after school to walk around, lame around...we saw our form teacher in the train o.o She turned her head when I mentioned her name to answer Kaihui's question and we saw her turning her head towards us...WHOAAAA SCARY! And I saw her in the LRT today while going to school, lol. Today afternoon I went to Bukit Gombak's dance studio with Siying for an hour :D

If possible, I'm getting my Ipod nano LIKE FINALLY this Sunday (yes my birthday!) :D Hopefully that shop selling the cheapest brand-new ones in town (what I searched around so far) will have the functions I want so it's worth the price! Going shopping with Siying too, so I have to finish my homework by tomorrow to enjoy myself this weekend ^^ Oh, gonna lend her my Mirotic album too..erm, it's the Taiwan version xD She was super surprised when I said, "4 versions of Mirotic album" xDDD

How did my Maths textbook get missing!? Need dividers and thumbdrive too, sigh $$$!

2010-01-01T20:09:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Sungmin & Junsu ^o^

You guys are lucky. Before the clock strikes 12, you have people counting down. The moment the clock strikes 12, you have people wishing & cheering. After the clock strikes strikes 12, you're a year older.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the two of you who are close with Hyukkie xD AND EVEN SUPPOSED TO DEBUT TOGETHER! May Super Junior and TVXQ's futures be happy :D

2009-12-31T17:32:00.003+08:00

A few more videos from Gayo Daejun for personal entertainment ^^

Teukigayo@SBS - LOVE THIS PART! The moment I saw Leeteuk I was like "Wow he's hot with this hairstyle!" I love how he just pops out behind the MC & show the photo again, lol. And ROFL to the other photos, how I wish SJ will be featured too xD Eunteuk for the win! :D

2PM wins Song of the Year with AAA@KBS - I'm amazed how they managed to win against so many other hits! Congrats 2PM! (;

Performing AAA ^^

P/S. Stupid so-called younger sister of mine brought a whole bunch of monkies back home. Monkies, can you please be considerate, THIS IS NOT YOUR TERRITORY & STOP MAKING SO MUCH NOISE! KTKL, you wished for us to be outta the house? GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT YOU FUCKING BIATCH, I REALLY SHOULD HAVE SLAPPED YOU JUST NOW! You need to thank god that no neighbours came up to complain! Tsk, where's your manners? -.- And to think they all immediately shut up when I slammed the door in their faces. Next time I guess staring at them alone they will stop everything xD Once bitten, twice shy isn't it? ;D

2009-12-31T03:49:00.002+08:00

!@#$%^&...

Sorry for starting this New Year's Eve post with...lol. Let me talk about this week (though I can't really remember what happened) before reflecting.

Monday
I think I went out with Siying & she came over to my house to visit Lala. Bought 2 magazines - YG & Teens! I lent her my Korean movies (My Sassy Girl & Attack on the Pin-up boys) :D

Tuesday
Was supposed to have a very busy day - Go Lot1 for breakfast with Siying, then rush to Pasir Ris to meet Naj to go to her friend's house (I think it's the same friend as the one at the dance session) and go to Bugis to meet Huiling sunbae for shopping. In the end I only went out with Huiling sunbae, my other appointments ended up getting either postponed or cancelled -.- Nvm, can relax a bit, haha. Huiling sunbae was really surprised when she knew I learnt Love Like This' chorus in a single afternoon xD Took neo-prints with her too! And I started on the Korean movie which featured Sulli introduced by AKP - Punch Lady & stopped halfway cos I was too sleepy to continue...

Wednesday
I was late to meet my customer for payment & meeting Rachel for my SJ's star crackers+pass customers' money!! So sorry to both of you, I overslept D: Finished watching Punch Lady, kudos to the female lead for bashing the violent male character up! And bravos to Sulli for her notorious acting ^o^ I finished the packet with Hyukjae on it & washed it...do you really think I'm throwing it away? Lol xD Will eat the Ryeowook one soon I think...

Anyway, today's episode of Iris got extended?! I was so surprised to see it continue at around 10.20pm, it was supposed to end at 10.10pm. But they showed till about 11.20pm..so am going to continue tomorrow, can't wait to see what happens :D

When I collect my red packets from my birthday, I will take out around $150 to buy a 4GB Ipod...really sick of the endless problems of my freaking handphone (and Mum just refuses to buy anything). I've been seeing lots of random Super Junior, TVXQ & 2PM on TV - PARADISE!!! Their MVs/live performances/interviews pop out & I wake up all over again, lol. Have been doing collabs with Maureen sunbae too, but damn my deproved singing (after too much dancing? LOL) & horrible quality of mike -.-

Am going to Naj's house tomorrow...no, when I wake up later. I really need to go to sleep after posting this. GAHHH BUT I JUST LOADED A 2PM VIDEO!!! Oh oh there's Music Bank repeat telecast in the late morning, I guess I'll finish watching that before going to meet Naj, but will be a little late though...

Here are some 2PM perfs@SBS gayo daejun :D Didn't watch them live cos I know the streaming will be terrible & I was busy going out...

You're Beautiful parody - JUNHO & WOOYOUNG KISSED?! LOLLL. Wished I was Wooyoung cos all 2PM members fall in love with you & bla bla *gets slapped*

5 Steps perf. Nichkhun & Junsu are singing a lot ^^ Gah Taec didn't get a solo at all?! Nvm, their harmony (reminds me of TVXQ, sniff) makes up for everything :D

Heartbeat Zombie intro. Awesome, they really never fail to amaze me! Imagine if you open the door & TAECYEON'S WET IN THE BATHTUB OMGOMGOMG! *goes mad*

This starts after the intro - can you feel my heartbeat? WONDERFUL ENDING!!! Chansung lifted Nichkhun up just like that, wow o.o

Reflections

First time going on radio xD Very proud of myself for achieving Best in English for the whole level, I really never thought I'll achieve that..in primary school, I only topped in class at most. Once a winner, you're never always one - this line sticks in my heart, I should stay humble to myself. I realised life isn't always a bed of roses, it's how about you overcoming challenges & how you view yourself. Every moment is counted by happiness, not every moment you breathe. After watching Hot Blood, I guess I found a new source of motivation. Whenever I feel like giving up, I'll think of that show - it does wonders to my will I guess. Whatever I'm suffering, tolerating or feeling is nothing compared to them.

My favourite groups didn't have a good year. All the best for them in 2010! DONGBANGJUNIORPM HWAITING! :DDD

GOING TO BE IN THE SAME CLASS AS SIYING NEXT YEAR YAY! We're re-united after 2 years xD And we only have one different subject, so we're gonna be in the same class for most of the time :D

Like Yoochun, I will want to be happier next year.

2009-12-27T00:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAECYEON! <3

Just got into 2PM these few weeks & you're the first member for me to wish a happy birthday to. AND MY FAVOURITE ~~beast~~ MEMBER TOO!!! :D

It's an impossible wish, but dreaming doesn't hurt xD

It may be a bit mushy, but my impressions of you are impressive.

Hot Blood - You were the first one to step out & volunteer to fight against the professional boxer. That's so brave & courageous of you. Because you were the first volunteer, he used most of his energy & you even bled.

Star King - You were the only guy (at least in front of the camera) to cover your eyes even when the female monkey took off her skirt. That's so gentlemanly & polite of you.

Wild Bunny - You didn't get angry at your members even when they annoyed & made fun of you all the way. That's so forgiving & kind-hearted of you.

You appear so tough, but there are so many unimaginable beautiful qualities you own.

2PM's always here for you ^o^

Love ya, 21-year-old beast HWAITING! :D

2009-12-26T18:37:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 6TH ANNIVERSARY, DONG BANG SHIN KI :DDD

Despite all the rumours, nonsense, disputes, disagreements...TVXQ will always be one. Always keep the faith & Cassies will always root for you. Only Hero Jaejoong, U-Know Yunho, Micky Yoochun, Xiah Junsu & Max Changmin make a complete Dong Bang Shin Ki, the legendary Asian group.

The feelings between TVXQ members is more than just friendship – it’s brotherly love. Hero Jaejoong, U-Know Yunho, Micky Yoochun, Xiah Junsu & Max Changmin are the only five who can make a complete Dong Bang Shin Ki.

TVXQ is the band that I shed the most tears, smiled with & laughed the most for.

Together with Cassies, we go through all hardship & happiness together. For me, though TVXQ & I are under the same sky, yet we can’t see other. However, I know we always think of each other & remember each other in our hearts.

Their lovely & melodic voices, out-of-the-world harmanization, & even drop-dead gorgeous looks, are all irreplacable.

You are my everything to me, Dong Bang Shin Ki hwaiting.

Joreen

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So sorry for not updating these days, have been busy shopping & too lazy to update these days =.=

Bought a new pair of colourful skinny! Mum says it's too bright, and after I bought it, I realised it looks like Yoona's skinny colour in Gee MV -.- But can't be exchanged, so have to make do with it. And she keeps telling me to set aside some clothes for CNY, lol.

Went shopping with Siying on Wednesday & Thursday! On Wednesday, we went to shop a little at Orchard and snacked at Say Cheese. I can't remember the name of the cake we ordered, but that cake alone left both of us pretty full, lol.

On Thursday it was just an extended trip for Wednesday's cos I didn't bring enough money to buy that army-green vest I want. Kind Siying decided to come with me again, thanks xD We went to shop at Kino too. AHHH THOSE MAGAZINES ARE SO TEMPTING!!! (close friends will know I love mags ^^)

Friday's MuBank Christmas Special WAS A BLAST! Love watching shows on TV, especially live stuff ^^ Special collabs (OMG TAEC SINGING MY EAR CANDY), teamed-up stages (Beast & MBLAQ performing various KPOP dances!), lovely solo stages (Baek Ji Young singing Please Don't Forget & Seohyun playing the piano), 2PM's wonderful perfs as usual, cuties Leeteuk+Shindong being MCs, Super Junior's much-missed Sorry Sorry stage! 4 members were missing, but I was happy to see the rest on TV ^^ There's some KBS Entertainment Awards tonight too :)

Have been watching Hot Blood Men these days...gosh, OneDay's training is so much tougher than I thought. For some reason, I feel like exercising after watching, haha.

Going out with Huiling perhaps on Tuesday. Receiving my SJ Star crackers soon too :DDD

2009-12-25T23:22:00.001+08:00

Merry X'mas everyone ^^

Hopefully 2010 will bring a healthier and happier year for everyone - KPOP, family, friends, Lala...everything.

2009-12-21T23:49:00.002+08:00

My nose has been running like crazy ):

My god I hope everything turns out fine please. Too much controversies nowadays (see my excessive Plurking). First Jaechunsu's lawsuit, then Jaebeom's departure, now Hangeng...sigh.

2009 isn't gonna end well.

But I'm going out on Wednesday with Siying..and I really hope to start on my freaking English assignment soon lol.

CASSIELF HWAITING! Let's not let SM bring us down :DDD

2009-12-19T00:18:00.004+08:00

It's 12.18am (Saturday) now...so I shall talk about yesterday & Thursday!

Went shopping & movie with Huiling sunbae@Orchard. Watched Storm Warriors II, what a sudden ending! Ahhhh Xie Ting Feng~ After the movie, we shopped at random places in Orchard - Cineleisure, 313, Wisma. Took a look around the new HMV outlet, pretty nice! Not many Super Junior & TVXQ albums but at least there were some. Not a single 2PM one though T.T She had her dinner at 313's Say Cheese & I had orange juice cos I need to eat at home. Wanted to take her to Orchard Central to see still got BEG's stage or not (LOL), but by that time we were too tired & it was late, so forget it. Anyway thanks for the textbook (though it wasn't free), sunbae! xD

Reached home at around 9PM that day & quickly rushed to watch Iris! :D Then I was super tired already..but still went online for some KPOP updates & settle blogshop stuff before going to sleep...

YESTERDAY!!! It was so fun. Met Huiling up again & we went to meet my new online friend Naj. her mother & another friend (she didn't tell us her name T.T) came along, but her mum left halfway through our dance session. We wanted to make dance & song covers but we ended up doing nothing much, but it was an enjoyable time! Dancing with friends is so much more fun than practising myself! Naj & her friend said Huiling was pretty & they said I danced well (ESPECIALLY THE LEG KICK IN GENIE LOL) xD

Taught Huiling sunbae bits & pieces of Gee, Genie, Sorry Sorry & It's You. We tried dancing & singing songs like Abracadabra (& laughed at DEG's parody too), Ring Ding Dong (I imitated Key & they laughed), Genie. Oh oh, when I was talking about how hard Taecyeon's rap was in Heartbeat, the music playing on random on the laptop started playing that song & all of us ROFL-ed xD Me being shameless joked "2PM loves me~"

Then chatted about our fav members in bands...

2PM
Naj & friend: "Nichkhun!"
Me: "Taecyeon.."
Naj & friend: "Oooo Taecyeon!"
Me: "?"

Lol, don't know why did they tease me about liking Taecyeon though!

SHINee
Naj: "I like Taemin!"
Friend: "I like Key!"
Me: "SAME! :D"

Super Junior
Friend: "Who do you like in Super Junior?"
Me: "Hyukjae! Oh, Eunhyuk..."
Friend: "Ehhhh he's cool! ;D"

Brown Eyed Girls
Me: "I kinda like Ga-In!"
Naj & friend: "Same same!"
Naj: "Huiling looks like Narsha!"
All: *Agree*
Huiling: "Huh who's Narsha?"
Me: "Don't worry, she's pretty!"

Huiling doesn't know much about the members in Korean bands so she felt a bit left out I think...psps we really didn't mean to! Both of us went for bubble tea after the session :D Ahhh, having common idols even within new friends can bring us closer, they even invited me over to Naj's friend's hosue to make song covers! It's a bit far though, but hope I won't be lazy to make it LOL.

Okay off to do my translation now, hoped you enjoyed the boring long post. OMG I NEED TO PASS UP TODAY NEED TO HURRY.

2009-12-16T23:00:00.002+08:00

Yeah..kinda bitter about Melon Awards, sigh. It's kinda insane that Super Junior only got one award, but still congrats anyway! I voted like crazy, but what can I do? Oh well. Found lots of fans to complain with me anyway LOL. Hope it'd be a better year for Super Junior next year! Shopping+movie with Huiling sunbae tomorrow & dance session on Friday to forget my unhappiness! :D

I'm really happy for TVXQ for bagging both 2009 Mania and 2009 Star, they had lots of competitors! I remembered when I was about to select Super Junior, I ended up voting for TVXQ xD I remembered I saw a TVXQ banner@a recent Music Bank episode too!

Isn't it empty to see nobody going up to the stage receiving the award...nvm, they dominated both of these ^^ *claps for DongBangShinKi*

Don't know what to blog about these days...ahh, let me congrats SYC for buying a domain & officially changing the link to www.sharingyoochun.net! My one-stop source for fangirling times, TVXQ updates, funny fanfics, fan works (fanarts, fanaccounts etc), hilarious captions and more! The readers & writers have been through TVXQ's ups & downs with me. SYC hwaiting! :D

2009-12-15T23:51:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Junsu!!!

Stay dorky & healthy forever :D Don't worry about the lawsuit, fans are always here with you! (:

2009-12-13T22:10:00.005+08:00

I'm about to faint cos I didn't sleep a wink last night & spent the whole morning+half an afternoon at Orchard. But when I think of TVXQ & Super Junior's schedules I feel a little more awake again LOL. I even fell asleep at around 7.30pm till 9.30pm with my comp turned on ):

Brown Eyed Girls Fanaccount@Singapore Orchard Central!

My feet's now full of blisters cos of the heels...they weren't very high, but at least they helped a bit. I reached at 8am alone without ChengSheng & Maureen sunbaes...had no idea what to do alone -.- While waiting, the group of Malay guys (+ a Korean girl I think) behind me were pretty noisy...but I had to stifle my giggles when they make random funny jokes xD Some of them kept hitting me while playing, but it wasn't on purpose & I'll forgive them cos they kept me entertained for a pretty long time ^o^

People played random KPOP songs, but WHY NO DONGBANG JUNIOR?!

But I made quite a few new friends! We all gathered into a group at 4th storey and chatting while waiting xD I consider myself very lucky:

Staff: *before my row* STOP! *discusses* Sorry, we hope you understand that there isn't anymore space in front..
*Another staff whispers*
Staff: ONE MORE ROW UP!
*new friends and I rush up*

THANK YOU PEOPLE!!!! :DDDD We could have been standing all the way at the back without you x) We didn't really know each other's names (just chatting randomly with each other), but thanks to the female+male couple who gave up their positions for me, very grateful to you guys, hope to meet you all again!!! :D

Two of my fancams can see Jea pretty clearly..I was so close to them at the lift!!!! Though my photography is horrible, I saw Jea & Miryo's faces very clearly in person :DDD They were pretty small-sized if I saw correctly..and Miryo & Ga In were pretty stunning! Narsha was pretty cute too! At 4th level...some people should spare a thought about holding their freaking banners up -.- THE ADMINS WERE SHOUTING AT ALL OF YOU TO PUT THEM DOWN TOO! Zzz.

But anyway, I had a whale of a time, whether bad or good, it was an interesting experience ^^ Really like Miryo now! :D

Poor hands, poor legs, poor brain...I finished my dinner & don't feel so drowsy now. I'm opening a brand-new blogshop selling idol merch with Rachiel, the friend I said who was an ELF too and I'm also helping her a bit with her subbing projects (: Homework homework, lol. Can't wait to get income~~

人のせいに敷設する前に確認の彼らの態度を維持することを学ぶ必要があります。

To freaking KTKL: Oh no, I pity your horrible English. If you wanna scold someone (ESPECIALLY PEOPLE OLDER THAN YOU), buck up on your English please -.- Don't go around disgracing yourself. AND I KNOW YOU ARE READING, that's why I'm writing! You don't know?! That's really stupid of you! :D And oh, I took down my tagboard cos it's no use with your fucking friends tagging same old things, "YOUR BOYFRIEND THIS AND THAT, CHEER UP & SMILE, I LOVE YOU THIS AND THAT *adds in vulgar & try to look cool*" zzz, some new ideas please! And fucking stop copying me by staying up at night you freaking sicko.

Anyone wants her link, come to me directly ^^

I'M TELLING MUM YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND! :DDDDD Mention it, why you don't dare, YOU COME IN & STEAL MY STUFF WHENEVER I'M GONE! Why are you so scared? Come on, I won't eat you up, I'll only hack you into pieces and feed you to the pigs xD

I think I should stop wasting my blog space to talk about you. An eye for an eye how about talking bad behind your back instead? :D

2009-12-11T20:13:00.002+08:00

Have been crying for TVXQ again. Sigh. Bigeast fanmeeting session has been cancelled and it just leads to more heartbreaks, gossips, rumours, nonsense...like what Leader-shii has said. And has me thinking negatively. But we need to stay strong.

Let's just move on to happy news.

Super Junior's Sorry Sorry Answer MV!!! OMG WHAT'S UP WITH HYUKKIE'S SEXY HAIR AND DANCING AND RAPPING! Is it just me, or has his voice become deeper? And Leeteuk on the sofa, good-looking Ryeowook, Siwon wearing his shirt, Donghae's dancing...ahhh. Pretty sad that there's no Kibum & hardly any Kangin, but still it's a wonderful MV!

I need to do another translation again. Helping a friend (who's an ELF too!) with it & not getting my name shown in the video, but it feels kinda good to see your work online xD Oh I'm buying my star crackers from her too, expecting to collect Hyuk & Wook's packets this month :D

2009-12-10T23:19:00.004+08:00

Ehhh peeps I'm too tired to edit my blog now, please bear with the messiness again -.-

Super Junior's new remixes, fresh from the oven! :DDD

Sorry Sorry-Answer. AHHHHHHH EUNHAE'S RAP!!! *Anticipates for MV*

It's You remixed version!

I count myself lucky to have been able to catch Golden Disk Awards live on time cos I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT IT! Lol, forgetful me. I also caught SJ-M on TV yesterday & stayed up to watch the repeat telecast, haha. After the ceremony, I rushed to watch Iris on TV, continuous heart-racing moments. Congrats to Lee Seung Chul (love his Love is so Difficult), Lee Seung Gi, SHINee, 2PM and of course Super Junior!

SNSD spoiled everything whenever they appeared on screen, tsk.

Not much of a 2PM fan, but it was pretty heartwarming to see them leaving an empty spot for Jaebeom!

For some reason, 2008's award ceremonies were more memorable for me. Perhaps this time it's cos I didn't shed a single tear but cried like heck for TVXQ last year. And it's my first time catching award ceremonies live from Korea. Five on them onstage, Changmin crying, spazzing with fans, Yunho making his noble & heartfelt speech...sigh.

It's all so different without them this year.

Anyway, back to happy moments. SUPER JUNIOR WON 3 AWARDS! Am so happy & proud of them, though I missed the red carpet, at least I caught the perfomances ^^

Ahh, Hyukkie, Donghae, Ryeowook & Leeteuk cried ): One final congrats to the 13 princes!

*Awaiting for Melon Music Awards*

People should stop being so rude, LEARN TO REPLY & don't come begging to me when you are the one who need help. You know who you are, shame on you.

2009-12-10T18:47:00.002+08:00

Someone in my so-called family should seriously buck up and do something instead of slacking around, using the Net 24/7 & wasting our the house's resources. You even need me to heat up your dinner. You don't even know how to do housework, guess you need to stay single forever unless some poor blind guy decides to be with you. Worthless piece of shit.

And that stupid neighbour living above us is being very irritating and noisy recently.

2009-12-10T18:26:00.002+08:00

Congrats with 3rd year anniversary for EOU
Although this is the tough moment with full of rumors, lies, gossips and non sense ridiculous news.

Please keep this precious love together like how we have been in the last 6 years and we will never change.

Please protect the precious love together

-U know Yunho-

credit: iknowyoonho.com
trans by: sharingyoochun@wordpress

Very reassuring message, Yunho-shii. We're all glad that you spoke up. Be reassured too that we'll never give up on TVXQ.

2009-12-08T18:40:00.001+08:00

Still in the process of updating my blog, please bear with the current one :D

2009-12-04T20:42:00.003+08:00

The shirt looks so huge on me...so hope I'll grow fatter soon. LOL.

OH NO YOU CAN'T! If you find that shirt too big you can always give it to me dearie ^^

Anyway, it might be a little too early to say this, but me and some sunbaes are gonna catch Brown Eyed Girls in person next Sunday! Everything's not confirmed yet, and even if I'm not a fan of BEG, it's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and definitely worth squeezing with the crowd cos if we're lucky enough, we can take photos and get autographs! Haha xD

My stomach has been upset lately...perhaps it's indigestion? Sigh.

OMG, KTKL, now you up to COPYING?! YOU'RE USING PLURK TOO?! Oh god, go and die please. -.-

P/S. Crap, what's with this bandwidth exceeded thing?! Damn it I need to change blogskin again T.T Please bear with it for some time while I go watch TV, LOL.

P/P/S. Need to start Junsu's birthday letter soon...

P/P/P/S. ARGH I DON'T WANT GO THERE THIS SUNDAY! -.-

Survey!

2009-12-04T03:20:00.003+08:00

What I love most - music quizzes :DDD

What do people assume when they first look at me?
Song: Rising Sun
Artist: TVXQ
LOL it doesn't make sense o.o

What will be a big challenge in life for me?
Song: Sorry Sorry
Artist: Super Junior
Apologizing? xD

Am I a good girlfriend?
Song: One Love
Artist: 1TYM
Oh yes I am, lol.

How will I die?
Song: Candy
Artist: H.O.T
HAHAHA!!!

Is someone trying to kill me?
Song: Twins (Knock Out)
Artist: Super Junior
I'm getting knocked out by a pair of twins...

What should I do instead of this quiz?
Song: Rokkugo
Artist: Super Junior T
LOL go...backwards?!

What is a bad habit that I should try to stop?
Song: The One I Love
Artist: Super Junior K.R.Y
Yeah, stop loving so many guys at a time...I mean DBSJ.

What's for dinner tonight?
Song: Love Disease
Artist: Super Junior

How does the world see me?
Song: Don't Don
Artist : Super Junior
Money-minded...

Will I have a happy life?
Song: Marry U
Artist: Super Junior
OH HECK YEAH! XD

What do my friends really think of me?
Song: Super Girl
Artist: Super Junior M
Why, thank you ^^

Do people secretly lust after me?
Song: Insomnia
Artist: Wheesung
?!They think of me when they can't fall asleep?!

How can I make myself happy?
Song: She's Gone
Artist: Super Junior
She = KTKL.

What should I do with my life?
Song: Blue Tomorrow
Artist: Super Junior M
Go emo everyday... T.T

Why should life be full of so much pain?
Song: You're My Melody
Artist: TVXQ
Can't be, my melody lies in TVXQ's beautiful voices (:

How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
Song: Mirotic
Artist: TVXQ
ROFLOMG?! *kills myself*

Will I ever have children?
Song: Doll
Artist: Lee Ji Hoon ft. Kangta/Shin Hye Sung
A pretty daughter, perhaps? o.o

Will I die happy?
Song: Love Is So Difficult
Artist: Lee Seung Chul
No.. T.T

What is some good advice for me?
Song: One
Artist: TVXQ
Fall in love with just one guy. Lol.

What is happiness?
Song: Into the New World
Artist: SNSD
Really...?

What is my favourite fetish?
Song: Like Now
Artist: TVXQ

How will I be remembered?
Song: Heartquake
Artist: Super Junior K.R.Y ft. Yunho & Yoochun
o.o

How do I get more sex?
Song: Cooking? Cooking!
Artist: Super Junior H
?!?!?!?!

Ahahaha, all SJ sub-groups are here xD I personally find the Mirotic one the funniest, LOL!!!

2009-12-04T01:57:00.004+08:00

Gonna collect my TVXQ-endorsed shirt tomorrow ^^

Ehh wait...it's after I wake up, lol. ~~Smart me~~ I counted down and did some researching on when SJ's episode of Chit Chat of Beautiful Ladies and sure I was, it was broadcasted yesterday :DDD They didn't talk much, but it feels great to see them on TV, even if it was only 3 members! Rung Cheryl up to fangirl a while too, haha.

I didn't sleep a wink on Wednesday and ended up sleeping at random times of the day yesterday - 10am+ to about 12 noon and 2pm+ to about 4.30pm. During my afternoon nap, I dreamt that I missed CCOBL and was so devastated..but luckily that dream woke me up, if not I'll really miss them, lol.

I wish those people would just stop giving TVXQ (esp JaeChunSu) so much burden..JCS is sued again -.- Plus Kangin's case is being brought up again...just hope people would leave him alone cos he's feeling low enough already.

"HEY JOREEN DEAR! Here's a love twist for us ^^"

Let it all go well.

Haven't being commenting on IRIS since I started watching on KBS like weeks ago...IT'S A SUPER-COOL DRAMA. So much action and twists! And there's, u-know, TOP as a hot assassin to add to the fun, ahahaha. When I spotted the English spelling mistakes, I thought my eyes were having a problem..they were not after all, haha.

Other than that, it's a really good drama filmed in different parts of the world, not forgetting to add in the romance between the roles too xD Kim So Yun and Kim Tae Hee are so pretty! Almost every episode makes me cry (and up now it's only broadcasted till the 8th ep), either cos it's too touching or thrilling - like the scene where Lee Byung-hoon was hiding and trying to dig the bullet out of his waist...you can imagine the pain T.T And don't be surprised that scene can make me drop tears, try watching it yourself.

Off to start a new drama (All About Eve) now, toodles :D

P/S. KTKL is really lame and hypocritical to state in her freaking blog "JTZL TO BE OUT OF THE HOUSE!" HAHAHAHAH IN YOUR DREAMS MAN! You're really useless, at least I contribute to the family, tell me what have you done? Leaving a bad impression on us. Zzzz. You ungrateful slut, who was the one who went out to buy lunch, who was the one who picked up phone calls for you when you were asleep like a dead log?! Off to hell you go please. AND YOU STILL THINK IDK YOUR BLOG LOL! Sad to know I am related to someone so ignorant. Sigh. One more time you piss me off (which is likely to be soon) I'm posting your link here and let everyone find out your hypocritical face beside your "innocent face" in front of our relatives. Change, go ahead, smartass me will find out. :D

2009-12-02T22:38:00.002+08:00

Miraculous. My keyboard's back to normal o.o

Oh I need to complain again, sorry, this is my only ranting space.

I know I've seen many of these type of people, but they're seriously freaking annoying. Take that stupid little sister who's outside now. Please, dedicated fans like us don't regard you as "fans", you so-called "Kpop-lover".

Didn't you say you like GD that time? Oh, now snatching my fav TOP? And you said you wouldn't like him just because he was a "gangster" and "smokes and drinks" in the past? OMG I'VE NEVER SEEN SUCHA LAME PERSON LIKE YOU BEFORE! You're making me laugh my ass off man. Zzz, these kind of people...LOL. The funniest thing is you thought I'm clueless. Now you're the clueless one. PIG! :D

Alright I should ignore her now.

Last night I stayed up to watch Hello Schoolgirl! OMG Kangin and Sooyoung are such unexpected surprises...lol. Pretty short movie, but still entertaining xD Anyway, if you're wondering why did my new keyboard spoil again, because Jaejoong accidentally spilled Milo on it.

Okay I'm joking, I was the culprit xD Off to watch a new movie now ^^

2009-12-02T02:26:00.001+08:00

Fuck this fate of mine. Keyboard's spoil again. I hate them.

2009-11-29T19:45:00.002+08:00

Yet another rambling post.

This is to that son of a bitch who I'm ashamed to have as a father.

Oh my god, I can't believe that I'm so naive to promise myself to take care of you in the future. So wrong and stupid of me.

When my keyboard and handphone were having problems, I have to thank Mum for every effort she used to help me find and buy new ones/replacements. She's the only one caring to save up money for my books too. YOU DIDN'T LIFT A SINGLE FINGER YOU BASTARD! What kind of husband and father are you?!

I guess you attended all my parent-teacher conferences with a hope that the teacher badmouths me so you can use it to threaten me in future. YOU DIDN'T EVEN GO FOR THAT YOUNGER BITCH'S ONES!

Everytime she complains, you side with her. Me being fiery-tempered doesn't mean I'm always wrong! When I complain, it's always MY fault. She's so fucking rude to you and I DON'T SEE YOU SCOLDING HER! I only complained a short "Hmmph!" AND YOU SCOLDED ME? You better stop being naive and think that I'll provide for you in the future now. AN EYE FOR AN EYE!

Now I finally understand Mum's complaints. So much for making you a birthday card. When you're way tomorrow I'll tear it up and dump it.

And please, you're so old already, leave your hair as it is, stop being so vain to torture and dye it -.- What a waste of money spent on the dye. If you're so free on weekends GO TO WORK AND EARN MORE MONEY! Stop making Mum work so hard, SHE'S YUOR WIFE! USELESS BASTARD!

Die, just die.

Why aren't I committing suicide or something..? I promise myself to stay strong until I get to see people I respect most in person = TVXQ & Super Junior. Which I have a very low chance of fulfilling, but that's the only thought to keep me going on.

Also, I really can't believe ALL 5 OF US actually always speak bad behind each other's backs. Are we really a family? We act all chummy and close in front of others, yet we backstab one another. I'm so ashamed to be part of this...family. Damn it. Just my luck to be born as the freaking middle child = the one who suffers the most.

Sometimes I cry for no reason. When watching TV, in my room, whatever. Like now. This feeling is getting worse, I cry everyday now.

I want to be filial. They are giving me indirect answers that I shouldn't. I help around the house, hoping to lessen Mum's load. I make Dad a birthday card, hoping for him to be happy on his birthday. Don't blame me if I decide to ignore you in the future. Oh well, you have your other two princesses who are only good at wasting this and that. GOOD LUCK!

I'm dying to grow up and finish my studies so I can have my revenge.

I don't like this. Depression much...?

2009-11-29T01:17:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone, I'll try to do a blog makeover soon ^^ MY KEYBOARD'S BACK!!!!! Oh my, how I miss proper blogging <3 Mum just bought me my new handphone cover and battery, hopefully it will finish charging by the time I wake up.

Off to watch some TVXQ drama-making now, annyeong ^o^

"I'm sorry, you've got the wrong number."

2009-11-27T15:11:00.005+08:00

Just some random (old) photo updates ^^

OMG cute Yoochun looks so baby-ish here!!! <3

Five princely gods.

Best Asia Representative - TVXQ :D

Changmin's new hairstyle...HE IS SO HANDSOME!!! I was practically staring at him with my mouth open o.o Finally our dear maknae has a decent hairstyle xD

Heavenly Jaejae from Heaven's Postman <3

Hwaiting! :D

Congrats to Junsu for beng casted in a musical (: Now waiting for Leader Yunnie's news...and glad that hubby wasn't dating that Abiru woman. My god, she's too censored for him, stupid reporters -.- He deseves someone much better, erhm xD Ohoh, I caught Colors MV on TV a few days ago, lucky me :D

Jaechunsu rewind@MAMA - they all look gorgeous, but my poor Jae looked so worn-out and tired ):

Going to meet Cheryl & others later..cos we're not meeting tomorrow, so we are today. Long tme no shopping...lol.

2009-11-24T22:05:00.003+08:00

Fan Accounts About TVXQ’s Appearance in MAMA

My friend who went to MAMA yesterday… she was one of the Cassies who moved out of the way for JaeChunSu as they left.. and she overheard the staff talking.

Staff 1 – “Hey, did you see YoungWoong Jaejoong cry?”
Staff 2 – “Of course I did. I saw him crying silently and it was so sad that I felt so bad for him.”
Staff 1 – “They must be going through hell.. All three of them lost so much weight..”
Staff 2 – “Of course it’s hard for them… Micky Yoochun and Xiah Junsu were holding back tears..”
Staff 1 – “I feel so bad for them..”
Staff 2 – “Now that I think about it, it’s the first time I’ve seen YoungWoong Jaejoong cry. He used to hold back his tears even when they won the biggest awards. But to see him cry so hard that he didn’t care about what he looked like.. Phew.. I pity them..”
Staff 1 – “They’ll survive this well, they’re young.”

+
As the three were getting off the stage..
The fans started shouting “Miduhyo! Miduhyo!”
and YoungWoong Jaejoong apparently couldn’t hold it back anymore and burst into tears..
A Cassie overheard some of the staff talking
and they said that they had never seen YoungWoong Jaejoong cry so hard before….
He cried so hard that his screwed his face up and just let it out, not caring about what he looked like…
It hurts me to think of them in such pain…..
Also, in the parking lot, someone yelled “I believe in TVXQ!”
and the three stopped their car..

+
Yesterday, the three boys didn’t have bodyguards with them so the reporters were all over them so the Cassies acted as their bodyguards
And when they were leaving on the van that they had borrowed
A Cassie stuck a ‘Miduhyo’ sign on the car window
so the three stopped the car. So they could see it more, so more Cassies could stick these signs on their window.
And when the van was leaving, the Cassies acted as blockades so that the three could leave safely.
Our kind Cassies ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

Source: [Daum Television]
Translation credits: jeeelim5@tohosomnia.net
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Even staffs who are not TVXQ's fans feel the agony. Now others should understand Cassiopeia's pain. This feeling of pain is so unbearable.

I admire and respect JaeChunSu for their courage to appear in public despite missing bodyguards. (+no make-up artists, managers, stylists etc)

I was only watching MVs when the sudden feeling of pain and missing them struck me like lightning and thunder. I immediately lost my appetite and my heart swelled with immense hurt. This feeling lasted throughout the videos.

I thought I was fine already. I was wrong.

Now I understand why I don't want to see them much before. The pain of missing them is too overwhelming.

But we have to strive on for our five stars.

It may be stupid of me to say this, but I feel apologetic that I can't be there to support TVXQ physically.

Please stay strong.

2009-11-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

TVXQ winning best Representative for Asia! I'm really glad they mentioned Homin. We can imagine how hard it must have been for them...their solemn faces break my heart. I used up a whole packet of tissue crying. It's a pity not seeing TVXQ receiving this huge award as five. How can one year change everything? Five of them standing together happily last year...to this.

Screw SM for saying JaeSuChun had no right to receive the award on behalf of TVXQ. You are not in any position to comment either, please.

Congrats to SJ for winning 3 awards too. <3 Again, it's a pity they're not there...

2009-11-21T03:30:00.002+08:00

Midnight Fantasy

When I see you my heart skips a beat
I'm getting ready to tell you how I feel
Meeting you was good luck
Falling into it like this
Like cotton candy, I’ll melt you
I’ll leave this one-sided love

My love
You are truly beautiful
My heart has never been shaken up like this
Today as well, my heart
midnight fantasy
What can I do to bring us closer
Would you like it
If I kept showing up in your eyes
Like this, today as well
midnight fantasy

There’s nothing I can do
You keep looking over
Even though you have a lover
The day you smiled for me
Saying I love you
Saying I’d keep you in my embrace, I say

You’re right, I keep looking at you
Take notice and know
It’s okay that you’re a girl who has someone
It’s alright if you see me as pitiful
I know I will get hurt too
That’s right, I fell in love

From the moment I first saw you
I don’t know how much time passed by
Every night my heart
midnight fantasy

There’s nothing I can do
You keep looking over
Even though you have a lover
The day you smiled for me
Saying I love you
Saying I’d keep you in my embrace, I say

You’re right, I keep looking at you
Take notice and know
It’s okay that you’re a girl who has someone
It’s alright if you see me as pitiful
I know I will get hurt too
That’s right, I fell in love

My love has grown like this
Even if it’s difficult for me
Nothing will change
You’re right, I keep looking at you
Take notice and know
It’s okay that you’re a girl who has someone
It’s alright if you see me as pitiful
I know I will get hurt too
That’s right, I fell in love

I fell right into it
I can’t shrug it off
This is the first time for me too
Love, I mean
As time goes on, no matter what happens
I’ll protect you, I give my life
I want to dream the rest of my life with you
I’ll leave my heart by you now

2009-11-21T02:45:00.003+08:00

Looking forward to seeing SJ-M on TV over at Uncle's/Aunt's place later :D Oh my super girl, ni shi wo de baby girl...Sigh, I have to skip MAMA event (JAESUCHUN!!!) though ): AND I'M DYING TO GET A NEW KEYBOARD.

Anyway, so sorry for not updating a proper post as promised a few days ago. I'll update as much as possible once I get a new keyboard! It's super frustrating typing with the on-screen keyboard, letter by letter...zzz. Let's throw away all the unhappiness with some pictures:

HYUK HYUK HYUKKIE <3

Teukie angel <3

Finally seeing them as a group~

Seeing them makes my day. (:

Wookie@Great Wall of China (!):

Speaking of Ryeowook, Cheryl chose him as her fav member :D I wonder if it'd be changed sometime later, lol. Oh oh, Siying's going to Shanghai soon, I forgot when SJ-M is leaving for Taiwan but maybe she'll bump into them in Shanghai without knowing, heheh xD

This may be a video dated decades ago, but it's so funny I can't help sharing xD SUNGMIN IS ONE CLASSIC IMITATER LOL! And cute Kyuhyun trying to be handsome at the back...he has pretty good English ;D Kangin with his cute facial expressions! Did Hyukkie mention anything about his lips being sexy? xD

P/S. I love Sungmin's kitten ^o^
P/P/S. Read my plurks for updates if you miss my posts :D

2009-11-11T12:07:00.002+08:00

One love

Lately when my friends see me all worn out, they say
not to meet someone like you ever again, they say
You left me shaken and crying
and that last phrase, “meet someone better than me”
So once again like a fool I get drunk,
my heart is one deep night, once again I leave a message
Already I’m standing in the cold, gloomy rain
Now … now I will be smiling

Do you want love, what do I have to do
And I want love, I’m still in love with you
The memories are beautiful never let you go
The memories are beautiful never let you go

Do you want love, what do I have to do
And I want love, I’m still in love with you
I can never forget being left with nothing else I could possibly do
Please don’t go my girl
Please don’t go my girl

One love one love
The memories are beautiful always be my girl
One love one love
The memories are beautiful I don’t wanna ever say good bye

Oh, it’s still clear in my mind
On your birthday I was only able to give you a small gift,
I hated myself, that I was like that
But still you said that you were thankful and spilled tears
When will you be able to hear my earnest heart calling out nervously,
if it’s the same as the other half of yours that you long for,
then tell me now that you love me,
that you will never leave my side ever again, please..

Do you want love, what do I have to do
And I want love, I’m still in love with you
The memories are beautiful never let you go
The memories are beautiful never let you go

Do you want love, what do I have to do
And I want love, I’m still in love with you
I can never forget being left with nothing else I could possibly do
Please don’t go my girl

One love one love
The memories are beautiful always be my girl
One love one love
The memories are beautiful I don’t wanna ever say good bye

You’re still my love (uh,uh,uh,uh)
Oh! oh! oh! oh!
You’re still my love forever

Always be my love

One love one love
The memories are beautiful always be my girl
One love one love
The memories are beautiful I don’t wanna ever say good bye

2009-11-11T11:28:00.003+08:00

Hi peeps :D

My keyboard is spoilt for the past few weeks and thus explains the missing updates...so I'm now using my sis' computer heheh. Now that I'm updating, it'd be a wordy post though T.T For posts which I did not use my sis' comp...yes you guessed it, I typed every letter through on-screen keyboard, so please appreciate them, lol.

Yesterday...I FINALLY MASTERED SORRY SORRY'S TUTTING MOVE!! Feel so proud of myself cos lots of people in Youtube did it wrongly, and it was really difficult but luckily I found a good tutorial :D Yeah call me slow all you want, but isn't it better than you whoever's scolding me who hasn't even mastered it? ^^

Anyway, here's another of SHINee's performance FEATURING LEETEUK!!

Every step of Leeteuk's is so perfect <3>

Today's the release of Heaven's Postman :DDDDD Finally, been waiting since forever. I need to go back to school to prepare some crap camp stuff tomorrow...zzz. Happy birthday in advance Dad :D

At, the trip at Cheryl's house. Because Clifford was in China with his basketball mates and he's returning on Saturday night, his parents went to fetch him at the airport while me and Cheryl stayed at home. Played Super Junior's DVD and taught her a few steps for It's You and Sorry Sorry, what a kind cousin I am xD That night we slept close to midnight and she kept saying it was late, but for night owls like me isn't ^^

The next morning Clifford was surprised to see me in the room. I was like, "Are you pretending to be surprised, lol?" He watched some SCV channel while Cheryl and I watched Attack on the Pin-up Boys DVD. For the rest of the day till dinnertime, we slacked around in the house, haha. It was fun spending time with cousins though! :D Cheryl, it's your turn to come over...

2009-11-10T02:58:00.000+08:00

Be strong till the 12th.

2009-11-06T20:37:00.002+08:00

SHINee ft. Yesung MusicBank perf: (YESUNG!!!)

I rushed home after my movie to watch this...Cheryl was pretty late, lol. Luckily I was on time, though I arrived home at 6.40pm Dx We watched My Girlfriend Is An Agent, very entertaining ^^ Congrats SHINee for winning! :D

Going over to Cheryl's tomorrow for a 2-day-1-night stay, coming back on Monday. Bringing some DVDs for entertainment xD Clifford's coming back from his China trip tomorrow and all 3 of us are sleeping in the same room, pretty excited :D

Random: Kibum+Kimbum xD

2009-11-03T23:24:00.002+08:00

I Love You

I love you, oh I love you
I will be always stay by you
Somewhere deep in my heart we are one

Oh I love you, oh I love you
I will always love you more
Without you, I can’t go on

Yo, when I first saw you I didn’t know
That you would be my love
I thought you were just one of many
People passing by
But now I can’t even last a day without you
You’ve shown path for my life, you became my life
I love you
I love no one but you, I want you
I want you, you are my happiness
You’ve dyed me with your color
Hold my hand
Put some faith in me and don’t let that hand go
We are one
I will be always stay by you

I love you, oh I love you
I will be always stay by you
Somewhere deep in my heart we are one

Oh I love you, oh I love you
I will always love you more
Without you, I can’t go on

Even during the hard times I will be there for you
My love, my pair, let’s be together forever~

I love you. Oh I love you
I will spend my life with you
Even when the world ends I will be there to protect you

Oh I love you, oh I love you
I will always try hard for you
I guess I need you, I love you

2009-11-03T22:30:00.002+08:00

Am learning SJ's Reset now ^^

Yesterday went to IMM with Siying to shop around..but there was hardly anywhere for us to shop, lol. So we only went to Mac for lunch and after that Daiso, bought Crayon Shinchan's star biscuits as usual and a packet of tiramisu & chocolate mixed cookies. Wonderful snacks <3 Then went to buy 10 laminated cards, consisting of Suju and TVXQ cos Comics is having a sale! Discount of $5, wow...

Went to meet Siying today again to discuss about our part-time job of selling ice-cream...but in the end we decided to cancel that idea cos going for the interview is really troublesome, plus we had other ideas in mind. So when she called up the agent to inform him of our absence from the interview (which was supposed to be today), she told me he got really fed up, LOL. I don't know why weird me is so happy about him being fed up, hahaha! 幸灾乐祸　ｘＤ

Searched for Crayon Shinchan's music just now...sigh, I remembered I felt really moody after knowing the author (I forgot his name, oops) had died a tragic death T.T Poor him, I was looking forward to his future publications. Toodles to the anime cartoon I've watched since young...I miss Shinchan D:

Latest ep. of Bigeastation - HAHAH JAE'S GONNA BE LIKE THAT WHEN HE'S MIDDLE-AGED?! I can't imagine myself to recognise him...lol. As usual, how they teased each other was so hilarious! Ahhh, a little cheering up after all the recent rumours.

12th of November is a special date cos:

1) It's my Dad's birthday :D Need to get him a present soon! $$$...
2) AIRING OF HEAVEN'S POSTMAN! If I didn't remember wrongly...heheh. I need to prepare myself mentally for the erhm scene T.T
3) JaeSuChun's decision..something regarding the lawsuit. Praying that all goes fine.

Omo Joreen dear you must believe me, the kissing scene was my job, I did it against my will T.T

Ahhhh need to start on my English homework tomorrow. There are choices for us and I decided on one that requires reviews on books, music and films :D Kinda looking forward to doing it! :D

Always keep the faith.

2009-11-01T12:23:00.002+08:00

Ahhh, finally back to blogging.

My cable wire (the one used to transfer info from handphone to computer and vice versa) is spoilt, and till my elder sis' exams are over to help me fix it, there won't be personal pictures...don't miss me too much :D

Yesterday, just as usual...went over to relatives' but went home early cos that bitch needed to go out again. My aunts are pretty sick of her too :D YOU CALL YOURSELF A MOTHER?! Leaving your daughter to go home alone at night? Tsk tsk tsk. I love them for hating you! And she's being a total idiot today. She's practically DEAF over the phone and still dare to flare up when YOU ARE IN THE WRONG, WOMAN. Irritating asshole.

Then now...waiting for Tanya's reply to go some shopping mall to buy gifts for the camp. Gahhhh she and her waiting and all those last-minute plans are so sickening.

I'M SO HUNGRY I WANT MY LUNCH.....being so random today.

Haha, adorkable YooSuMin.

And cute hubby Jae <3

Have you heard of Junsu's new Vietnamese restaurant?

OMG SUN! Lol...

Alright the plans for the trip have been made. Sickening Tanya's going by herself and family. She has millions of changes all along and expect me to agree to each of them. Worse still she keeps asking me to wait. She's coming up with millions of excuses too, LIKE WHAT SHE ALWAYS DOES TO PACIFY ME. I suggested IMM, and THAT WAS MY IDEA. Now she's going alone there. WHAT LOGIC IS THAT?! IDIOT IDIOT IDIOT! Copycat.

To think I'm the one who introduced TVXQ to her. How I wish I could retrace my steps. And I hope my previous best friend was still there for me. That was my mistake She was so much better than this Tanya, who succeeds everytime in making me angry.

2009-10-29T15:10:00.002+08:00

It's the last day of school.

I'm leaving my 2-year class.

We're all gonna separate.

In a class, there're bound to be people you hate. But without them, we can never be complete as a class.

Although we never really cheered, spurred and encouraged each other for the past 2 years, the feelings between us still linger.

I'll cherish and miss all those times when we laughed together, smiled together, joked at and with each other, get scolded together, get into trouble together, moan together, clap together, happy together.

Best of luck for everything, guys. I'll miss you all.

2009-10-26T00:08:00.002+08:00

Leeteuk, will you help cheer me up?

Gentle & beautiful eyes,
Fall drops of heartbreaking tears.
Heartwarming & soft smile,
Along with that adorable dimple.

Proudly leading your members,
Yet you keep your sorrows to yourself.
Behind your carefree personality,
Lies an emotional angel who never stops worrying.

A strong outlook with a fragile heart,
Remember there are people who care for you.
Unforgettable smile that leaves an unforgettable imprint,
You'll never be forgotten.

You descend from a world called Heaven,
And entered many people's lives as a human.
Well-loved & leaving a wonderful impression,
You are known as an angel without wings.

For Leeteuk;
Written by Joreen, 18/10/09.

2009-10-25T23:55:00.003+08:00

Hearing the sound of the morning come, I fall asleep
As always have you spent the day forgetting me

How can you be okay with it so easily?
It was hard for me because I couldn't understand

Why you left me, one who never changed
Just like this we'll slowly forget each other saying "I love you"
Would be useless

I'm sorry, I was a selfish person
I tried to keep you by my side just because I loved you
That's right, I was forgetting something more important,
If I love you, you should always be happy.

I'll miss you, I can do anything about that, but I won't give you hard time.
For awhile I'll cry aching my heart and search for you but don't mind me
It'll only last for a while

It's okay. I'll be here like this. I can stand my self without you
I love you. This will never change. Even if your place is empty I will live loving you

I'll miss you, I can't do anything about that, but I won't give you hard time.
For awhile I'll cry aching my heart and search for you but don't mind me
It'll only last for a while

That's right, I'm being stupid but I'll keep our past memories and stand alone.
For awhile I'll cry aching my heart and search for you but don't mind me
It'll only be a momentary good-bye

2009-10-25T23:13:00.003+08:00

Even my stupid handphone is turning its back on me. No personal photos today.

Anyway, I went with Maureen senior, her sister and another senior named Huiling to the airport yesterday...to catch handsome Lee Minho live in action! I was more excited than I thought I would be when I reached there. And more people than I thought. Huiling senior pulled me off to eat, even though I wanted to stay and book my space (lol), I kinda unwillingly went along. But I must say she can really eat...we chatted over her meal (I wasn't eating) before going back.

And BOOM! A sudden increase in people...lol. Curse all those freaking people who brought their freaking trolleys along and took up SO much space. Kinda regretted not wearing heels, but at least cutie Minho smiled and waved in our direction ;D HOW LUCKY CAN WE GET?! Lol, I thought I was dreaming. The barrier in front of Maureen senior fell cos those freaking people behind kept pushing, like duh. We all know Minho's hot but why are you so desperate? -.-

The video and photos I took were horrible, I could only manage to film the CROWD and the...ceiling. Cheryl laughed at my video cos one part of it was really filming the ceiling LOL.

Very tired today cos I went on a freaking long shopping trip (5 hours straight) with Huiling senior at Orchard. In the MRT, we gushed over videos and she lent me a Japanese fashion magazine...when I flipped randomly, THERE WAS A SOULMATE INTERVIEW! Lucky me haha. Can't understand a word, but I read the translation before and looking at their photos is good enough :D

Went to Etude House and bought a small bottle of nail polish..I was supposed to get a free Minho poster, folder and facial mask, but cos Huiling senior and I shared only one receipt, we had to split the freebies ): I took the poster (pictures next time!) and she took the rest cos she spent a lot more, haha. The poster's in front of my bed now anyway xD

OMG I've never felt my legs so tired before...I nearly fainted when I was walking down the steps at the LRT station and two male noobs laughed at me. I bet they tripped over rocks and cried like babies in the middle of the streets after my curse, no? (;

Before going on to stuff about school, some random photos first~~~

Ahhhh handsome Hyukjae addressing to me<3

Is that Sungmin? Blind me, lol. Sungmin trying to seduce Hyukkie and laughing at him for his mushy words...

And a super old random hubby Jaejoong pic, LOL. From The Way U Are period ^o^

Will have something exciting to tell my friends tomorrow xD No school on Tues cos it's Promotion Day and no school on Friday cos it's Parent-Teacher meeting session...but all CCA duties during the holidays have been planned, and Tanya and I volunteered to organise the day games for the 2D1N camp :D YES I GOTTA LEAVE THE HOUSE! Gonna need some inspiration from random variety shows~

On Friday, I had a reallyyyy fun day in school. In the morning was some lame Maths programme and I had to face my Maths teacher with guilty cos I failed the subject, as usual D: But in the mid-morning, there's this activity called Student Forum, where 4 Express classes gather in the CLC to voice out their opinions and suggestions to wacky Mr Tay!

It was supposed to be at Rifle Range, but the air-con was spoilt remember...and the heat was super unbearable. Most of them were contributed by my class..and erhm, my CCA's Aloysius. Haha. It was a super fun activity with lots of harmonious laughter and genuine smiles from everyone. Luckily for us, we have another session this week during Wed I think, and we hope it'd be Mr Tay again :D

Last week with my 2-year class starting tomorrow. I bet I'll miss them.

Praying for better days ahead.

2009-10-25T22:39:00.003+08:00

Warning: Long ranting post.

CHEN NYET MEE = FUCKING UNCIVILIZED BABARIAN.

Before you complain about my attitude, take your fucking one in check. I hope your life span shortens more and more each day. Everytime we go out I never fail to pick a fight with you. Stop acting all funny and cute and pretty in front of everyone, IT'S PURE REVOLTING. You "dress up", apply LOADS of makeup, spend lots of fucking time styling your hair, walk fucking slowly on the streets and think you're a model. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEW, YOU'RE OLD ALREADY BITCH! I lose all my appetite because of YOU!

I just finished a cake and I'm about to puke while typing this. Why do you even fucking care when I go out all day? DON'T YOU DO THE SAME?! No wonder Dad is sick of you. I'm really glad he's siding with me. Great minds think alike (: You say I go out without telling you, WHAT ABOUT YOU? Oh pleaseeeeeeeee. Reflect on your fucking brainless mind before telling me off. Dance dance dance you still think you're young?! Let me tell you, you're OLD, OLD OLDDDDDDD! Your "assets" and...butt? are just useless pieces of shits that waste Earth's space.

You claim you wanna divorce YEARS ago. What's happening now? You said you had depression. What's happening now? You said you're gonna die SOON. WHAT'S HAPPENING NOW? You take all your anger and vent your fucking frustrations on us. Hang on, correction...it's only ME. You said all that cos of rumours that you had another man outside. Tsk. That's your fucking fate for flirting with outside men. Tsk. No wonder Dad hates you, same for me. You really irk me. Which part of you acts like a decent mother? A maid can easily replace you, you know?

I tell myself not to slit myself on the wrists anymore cos it's not worth it doing it for this freaking penniless family. Years ago, I did it and now I wake up. I still feel temptations when I'm burning with fury and I spot my scars, but I have enough self-control. I will never hurt myself again for people not worth my precious energy. Hardly anyone spots my scars and even if the physical abuse marks disappear, the emotional scars in the HEART will always be there. To remind myself not to be so foolish again. God, tell me what did I do in my past life and I promise to repent if you agree to let life start all over again without me being born in this...family. I don't even want to have a single link associated with any of them.

I'm terribly ashamed to have you as a mother. Other children are close to their mothers, and I'd be lying through my teeth if I say I don't envy them. You? YOU?! Biased towards your other two princesses. You're poor? What are all those fucking stuff I see on your little daughter's table? Who asked me to go home first whenever the three of us go out for lunch at malls? Who goes back empty-handed and a stomach not full of food but anger and who comes home WITH SHOPPING BAGS IN THE HANDS? THINK, BITCH, THINK!

Oh, I forgot you don't have a brain. But I wrote everything out for you, NOW YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO SEE.

Can I ask you a question? When will you die and leave me alone?

And you readers don't probe me on this. Call me heartless and ungrateful all you want, I guarantee you'll freaking feel the opposite if you were in my shoes. My good friend (I'm not naming her, please don't fucking ask) witnessed all these when she comes over and patiently listens and agrees to my laments often and I'm grateful for that. Not like most other "friends" or even relatives, they claim to care but they ignore me when I complain. You call this care? Go sit in a corner and reflect. CNM, don't deny cos they're ALL FACTS. Can't accept? Jump off a building please. Or get knocked over by a car. I swear not to provide for you.

P/S. When you come in and scold, please say it all at one go, LOL. You're already flawed enough, stop making yourself appear more naggy -.- Next time you scold (I'll make you do), I'll record everything down and let everyone listen :D :D :D Be sure to scold more that time!

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Kareen sucks too. That slut keeps walking past my door. TO SEE WHAT I'M DOING? Oh, go ahead you uncivilized moron. My friends say you're ugly and ACCEPT IT, stop taking photos and act pretty. I have to give up the FAMILY'S digital camera when I went to see LMH yesterday cos it was out of battery BY YOU TAKING YOUR OWN FUCKING PHOTOS. Tsk, like daughter like mother.

I know who reads my blog. Don't act innocent before I decide to private it.

2009-10-22T13:02:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps.

In school now, waiting for my EHB to load T.T It's freakingly slow man. I hear gaming sounds everywhere and I'm pathetically waiting for my videos to load. Not a single Korean fan site can be loaded too T.T I only have about an hour left before going home.

Today we spent the day in the Rifle Range - NO DIFFERENCE FROM A DESERT! Okay not that exaggerating, no difference from a sauna sounds much better. Lol. Have gone through all the papers so far, but not very satisfied with my results, but I reap what I sow..

Zzzz there's a meeting tomorrow. Activities that require us to return during holidays - camp, competitions, bla...

Anyway how I wish Tanya is online now. It's so boring with just Facebook gaming sounds around without my Soulmate and another fangirl to fangirl with T.T Ohoh, I stayed till like 4am last night cos I missed the first broadcast of My Fair Lady on MioTV and had to stay up to watch the repeat telecast...at 2.30am !#$%^&*@ Plus I didn't catch what episode the TV was airing, so can't watch online T.T Curse the TV for not working yesterday -.-

My plurk sounds are so loud. Lol.

HEAVEN'S POSTMAN IS AIRING NEXT MONTH, LIKE FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Need to wait so long for one episode T.T I've been waiting for so long..

AND I'M REALLY BORED!! My videos aren't even half loaded yet. Whatever, I'm gonna watch bit by bit...

2009-10-19T18:11:00.003+08:00

Went out with Siying today ^^

Our initial plan was to shop at Raffles' HMV and Suntec City before heading home. Then after that, cos we didn't feel going home, we decided to go ION@Orchard and shopped at Orchard Road too, haha. Our last stop was Comics Connection, bought a SJ handphone chain and Hyukkie card ^o^ Spent most of my money on food......anyway, I'm meeting her up again tomorrow :D

Someone introduced SJ-M on Yes933 yesterday!!! :DDD And I dreamt of meeting Donghae's (or Ryeowook again? Or any other member?) parents a few days ago in a really nice restaurant...lol. Why would I go and meet his parents...?

Getting this soon ^o^

Pictures of me and Cheryl zi-lianing on Saturday:

Idk how the side pictures ended up facing sideways again after I rotated them -.-

^^

TVXQ!!

Legendary Jaejoong pose <3

Soulmate! (: (again)

Always keep the faith.

Cried while watching Colors MV a few days ago. Really carefree, touching, lovely, sweet song.

P/S. I apologise for making so many of you worry yesterday. Thanks for the concern (:

2009-10-18T18:39:00.002+08:00

Turning point.

Everything isn't going the right way.

They need to reconsider if they call themselves friends.

The awkwardness needs to go away for us to be close again.

They claim to care. I think otherwise with their actions and ignorance.

Or maybe I'm too distant. Hard to understand.

I need to stop thinking negatively to stop myself from committing suicide, getting depression and landing myself in trouble.

Need a listening ear before I go bonkers.

I'm depressed.

Press the reset.

2009-10-15T15:27:00.003+08:00

You ask me if I really don’t feel anything or if nothing’s wrong from time to time
Do I really look like nothing is wrong? do I?
Even now, when I look at you my heart hurts..
Even if it’s for a moment, I try hard not to let my tears fall
Don’t you know that I’m smiling like a fool?
Now how can you and I become friends like before?
Can we really be like that? Can we really?

Press the reset, press press the reset
I’m looking at you.. only you
Press the reset, press press the reset
You, I can’t forget you
Press the reset, press press the reset
How am I to let go of the person who’s standing in front of me
Press the reset, press press the reset

You… Please say something..
That your heart is aching with longing too, like me.. tell me
My heart stops.. I can’t breathe.. my wounds don’t heal
I patch up the empty holes you left with tears today too
By any chance, would you go there? Think about me occasionally?
Thinking this, I go crazy. Do you know this heart of mine?
I love you, I love you. I promise you.. I’ll hold your hand tight.
I’m sorry I’m sorry.. come back to me. Press the reset

Can we really not go back to how we were..to the day when we first bumped into each other
Guess we can’t go back to that day.. please, oh please
Possibly.. maybe.. if… you too are smiling for my sake
If it’s really like that, come back now

Rather, should I leave first? Is letting you go something I do for you?
But forgive me.. I can’t do it. I can’t forget you. Come back

Super Junior - Reset.

2009-10-15T09:32:00.004+08:00

EOYS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*High-fives with Jaejoong hubby*

We got released at 9am after one paper today ~~~ Yay yay yay! I don't feel THAT relaxed actually, the papers were too difficult for me not to worry D: But no school for the NEXT FIVE DAYS, yoohoo! :DDDDD

Gonna watch Explorers of Human Body soon~ And news has been saying that the court will make their decision about TVXQ's lawsuit soon. Like seriously, they better hurry and stop saying "soon". Zzz. They making all of us worried to death.

While in the midst of a major headache while revising History on Sunday, Yes933 lifted my spirits by announcing Colors is first on Oricon (they announce the previous week's results, weird) and played the song too ^^

Absolute heavenly gorgeousness.

Ahhh sweetie Hyukkie ^o^

Random screenshot from a very long time ago's Come to Play..took this a very long time ago, but keep forgetting to upload lol. Hyukkie chosen as Super Casonova (lol) and posing <3>

My music is my life, for you, for your smile~

P/S.

Happy birthday Donghae :DDD

2009-10-09T22:43:00.002+08:00

Exams continue on Monday.

Intensive revision for most subjects this week is finally over.

It all now depends on myself. Mug this weekend, relax the next :)

3/4 of my school day was spent slacking cos Chinese = free period (actually we're supposed to revise, but I ended up crapping with Edwina, Yun Kuan, Sinead and Guan Ming, haha) & English = Miss Xie was absent. Edwina designed my right hand with Suju's names today :D But they're all washed off before I could take a photo D: There's still a slight mark left though. So many people were staring at my hand in the LRT, lol.

Anyway, I've hardly been saving any pictures nowadays, so only some old random KTR videos for now~

*Coughs*Hyukkie's arms!!! And plus his, erhm, chest-pumping O-o-only for you parts <3 Both of them look so good wearing caps!

Eunteuk trying to sing She's Gone by Steelheart~ Love Hyukkie's speaking-into-the-mike-thing at the beginning! And seeing Teukie laugh makes me laugh too, lol. The high notes and where they messed up were hilarious man! Never knew Hyukkie had sucha nice vibrato too. They were like in Karaoke LOL..Hyukkie's "OMG" at 4:20 is so random hahaha. I believe Changmin can make it at this song ^o^

Insomnia by Craig David in the background :D Teukie's hair looks so cool on him o.o Hyukkie is...too hot for the camera. Drink, yawn, lipsync...smoking sexy. When I saw his hairstyle I remembered I had a video of of him in the same hairstyle in my phone, close-up on Sorry Sorry xD Poor him looks tired though.

Cute Teukie playing with his towel and Hyukkie looking hot doing random stuff. Haha, this is a really short but cute one - Teukie threw his towel away at the end and I love how both of them looked up at the "Break!" part, lol. Looks like they're filming some ad xD

Ahhh, Hyukjae always looks so hot in KTR vids, even if he sits there and does nothing <3 Duh, I shouldn't be watching them at this time anyway...

Gahhh, I seriously need new earpieces. Damn the spoilt ones!! Won't be meeting Cheryl tomorrow cos we all need to study D: Hwaiting!

P/S. Slow me just found out that Junsu sang A Doll for his audition! <3

2009-10-05T23:12:00.002+08:00

Sigh.

Aren't feeling very well now. Stomach's quite bloated D: So collab of SJ's She's Gone with Maureen sunbae will be delayed by a bit...

Anyway, we just finished SJ-M's Super Girl and 2NE1's I Don't Care :DDD Super Girl was really fun to sing, though it might be awkward for girls to sing~Wo shi ni de superman~ and Ni shi wo de baby girl, LOLLL. Yup, we're collaborating in Chinese for the first time, perhaps that's why it was fun xD And I Don't Care was much harder to sing than I thought, so hard to pronounce and messed up a bit T.T

Random: I love SJ's Kiss the Radio logo song <3

Oh, finally performed during Music today. I tried my best to sing out loud haha. Was really hoping to perform a Korean song though, but I guess none of them in my class can be bothered to learn the lyrics -.-

Mircia and I concluded something about me today...not cursing myself or whatever, but I think I have anaemia T.T She sits beside me in class and so she notices. Even if I try to have adequate amount of sleep, I will not feel sleepy but still very weak and tired. Hard to concentrate in class and when thinking. Easily irritable. My other friends say they sleep late at night, but they still appear quite energetic in school the next day, except me. Check-up check-up check-up...

Currently into Leeteuk & Yesung's (Yeteuk? Leesung?)'s live collab A Doll. Teukie's voice is already sweet, but he sounds even sweeter here...and Yesung's voice is so deep and manly. Love the harmonization and the song puts me to sleep, despite all the screams in the background, haha. I find the song a bit too short though T.T I want Donghae's Beautiful solo cos Hyukkie is featured in it...okay that's part of the reason only, Donghae's composition sounds better than I thought~

I know you wanna see (you know you wanna) and though it's pretty late (I'm late in all SJ news), here's some hotness-sharing:

Junsu necklace ^o^ And around two weeks ago, I saw Teukie wearing a similar necklace..plus Hero's SM tee (like don't-know-how-many-years-ago)!!! ~~Chemistry..?~~

Long time no update, lotsa Jaejae pics ~~~

HOT concert pics...and the last one is sooooo pretty!

JJ: "After using Crebeau-JEFF products, my hair has grown healthier and more beautiful than my wife's! So smooth, shiny and silky...OOPS JOREEN YOU'RE HERE"
Me: *Bash*

Focused on composing ^o^

Pretty old Mirotic pic, but it's too hot not to share. His arms are too attractive not to stare at and his face is...totally epic.

Damn, we have like 7 mock exams this week T.T But I'm feeling a bit better now, maybe it's due to the comfort from all the Jaejae pics <3 Now I feel...

2009-10-05T22:37:00.000+08:00

If right now, someone, somewhere, is in pain
Spending the night alone and unable to sleep
Until light shines on that person's heart, we'll entwine these prayers,
Like a melody and harmony in love

Trying to make a difference, all we can do here is something small
But if for just one second, we could stop the world's tears
And change them into smiles...

We'll keep loving, we'll keep walking
Believing these overflowing feelings will reach someone
We met before we were born
And searched for our dreams... I get that feeling

You know you're just like them other ten,
A faded fight between you and I
I'd rather hope than make you sad and cry
What I just wanna say is
Keep the faith but fate never is moving us
It can't take us, it doesn't make different cases
So turn the light out, interact with a piece of dream
Sound brighter, we all want the same sound
Keep the tears, I told you how I'm your freedom, like a bird going through the sky
What are we, just a Christmas tree in the night?

Wrapped up in the twinkling sound,
I was able to forget all the sadness
Melody and harmony have always been with me
They gave me courage and hope

Thank you, thank you for everything
This shining feeling is a gift from you
It's taught me that we can support each other, gaze into each others eyes,
And that I'm not alone

We'll put this love we share in the melody
We want to convey it, always and forever

My music is my life
For you, for your smile
Because we have such a strong bond,
My life is wonderful
Forever, forever,
From right here...

We'll keep loving, we'll keep walking
Believing these overflowing feelings will reach someone
Thank you, thank you for everything
This shining feeling is a gift from you
We'll put this love we share in the melody
We want to convey it, always and forever

La la la...
Your gift
La la la...
Always and forever

2009-09-29T17:04:00.005+08:00

Hi peeps ^o^

I think there's no homework today :D HOPEFULLY when I check my bag later, there won't be the horror of assignments waiting for me to complete -.-

Since last night, my right ankle hurts cos it was swollen. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY IT SWELLED OVERNIGHT DAMN IT! I remembered I woke up to go to the toilet..and when I tried standing up and walking to the door, I almost fell over T.T Couldn't bring myself to walk cos BOTH legs were in pain and I was so sleepy & all, so I kinda crawled back to bed. Like "The Ring" movie, haha!! I had to limp in school all day and thanks Edwina for accompanying me ^^ I don't remember which leg was injured last year (none of anyone around me does too), but I hope it's not an infection or something...

After school today, around half the class stayed back for a little while to watch..an abortion video. Yes, abortion. The other half of the class left cos they had to go for lunch or too timid to watch heheh. To my surprise, the moment the ultrascan scene appeared, I saw the foetus immediately. Edwina told me Guan Ming couldn't spot it, LOL.

The whole thing was, of course disgusting. Although it's the nature of life, I can't help calling it revolting..think it's cos I can't imagine the process on myself. CHOI CHOI CHOI -.- I can't even bring myself to think of it. To me, it's not just the pain the mother is facing, but the pain of the foetus as well. I was trying to hold back my tears throughout the whole abortion. Now I admire the doctors-in-charge and all for being so brave and professional. The title of the vid "Silent Scream" haunts me a lot. Very much. Poor foetuses... ):

Anyway, let's have a little of TVXQ now!

Hyper Soulmate ^o^

Still no updates about the lawsuit...zzz+sigh. Colors is gonna be released tomorrow, good luck THSK :DDD

Collected my Junsu necklace yesterday :D Will upload pics next time!

P/S. I forgot to mention I saw Mdm Lim, my P6 form teacher, on the way home today. When we greeted each other, it was then I realised I missed her so much T.T

2009-09-26T18:54:00.001+08:00

You followed me annoyingly, and took a deep breath
trying to catch me, who's leaving you alone
I grabbed your shoulders tightly and loudly said "we're through"
That the farewell poison has already, without you knowing, spread in my heart

The disease where my love is slowly dying
It hurts a little, but I don't want to get better
Every single memory is erasing
Going back to the times when we were strangers,
I want to rest now

Like having played with fire for a long time
Everything has burned, and only ashes remain (only ashes remain)
Like how even the first feelings have become faint
Everything has become useless (useless)

Facing you and taking your hands, with a bitter smile, I said "please, be happy"
To find a person who will soothe and embrace the scars that I've left you

Though it hurts too much now
Some day, you might
Wipe your lips as a kiss triggers an unpleasant memory
Trying to erase the warmth you felt when I held you in my arms
Cold tears will wash you

The disease where my love is slowly dying
It hurts a little, but I don't want to get better
Every single memory is erasing
Going back to the times when we were strangers,
I want to rest now

2009-09-26T17:18:00.002+08:00

Back from Orchard! xD

And yes, I went for the 2PM protest for Jaebeom to come back~ Saw Shichieh-jie on the train, heheh. Lots of people on the streets took photos of us..luckily we had masks on -.- Maureen sunbae designed me and Ashley sunbae's masks :D Some of the fans were really noisy though, almost couldn't stand them. We got questioned by some security guard LOL. After the walk, we did some cheering stuff and proceeded to Cine for drinks. First ones to leave, but it felt good cos I didn't wanna stay and stare at those...over-hyper people, ROFL.

Jaejoong will be so fed up that I went for the protest..or will he feel happy cos I'm so supportive? ...

JJ: "Get away from me and Joreen's bed!!!!"

My legs feel so tired now that I can sleep at a touch of my pillow...

Anyway, went for a lame Maths test in the morning. On a pretty Saturday morning where I could wake up late in my room, have late breakfast, listen to wonderful music... -.- Didn't expect to see Chengsheng sunbae heheh. Walked to school with May Ann and chatted about SJ's Intimate Note :D Finished the test and went to Lot1 for a little walk with Hazira and Mircia...heard the English version of Insomnia while walking past New York restaurant ^^

Oh oh oh, I had a wonderful dream and if not for I had to wake up early, that dream will continue darn it!! Whatever, at least I remembered :D I dreamt of Super Junior for the first time ever, haha!! Surprisingly, Ryeowook was the main character..I wonder why not any other members as the main? Not that I don't like him (he's one of my favs!), just wondering o.o

I met SJ in person (yes!!) and some of them gave me their phone numbers, haha. Oddly enough, even if I was expecting Leeteuk or Hyukjae, Ryeowook was the only one I remembered what he was doing..full of smiles :DDD

I messaged those I picked xD Or I think it was all of them..Ryeowook and one other member (I forgot who) actually replied!!!! And I remembered RW's message was something like ~*^^*~ Lol too much imagination. But I was really happy :D Then I went to watch some SJ show and found that they fell sick..so when I was deciding to message/call (forgot again -.-) RW....

I woke up T.T

Duhhhhh! I was waiting for the other members' replies as well wth! I was really shocked when I woke up cos everything was so real. I didn't even know why I was in my room!! Guess I'm lucky to dream of this, but not lucky enough to receive the others' replies xD But I had other scenes (a little of SJ here & there) in my dream as well, and as expected they were mostly forgotten T.T Why are nice dreams forgotten so easily and nightmares are remembered so clearly?! T.T

Sexy looking Jae <3

Took this pic of Jae when we were out on a date ^^ Okay okay this is a really old pic -.-

My Junsu necklace has arrived, FINALLY. Hope to collect it soon (:

2009-09-24T22:50:00.004+08:00

Zzz, went home at 6.30pm today. But kinda had fun with May Ann and Tanya in the library haha. Damn , we have to go back on Sat for Maths mock test. -.-

I.am.so.tired.

Anyway, here's just an old short vid for some cheering up:

^^

You give tons of excuses for herself and never listens to my advice. You try to make me stop arguing. You try everything to make yourself seem better than me. Think my advice is shit after I'm trying to coax and help you? What an unappreciative ingrate. I stayed back to wait for you so many times and didn't complain at all and even though you know I hate wasting my time, I never hear a word of thanks. I sacrificed so much time for you even I could be at home relaxing. I asked you to watch videos, trying to help you relieve your stress but you never fail to delay with millions and millions of crap reasons trying to persuade me. It's just videos, can't you watch them on the spot?! I hate it when people say, "Wait till exams are over" and never do anything they promised. I better stop fooling myself thinking that you'll realise how irritated I am and change yourself.

Fuck this shit.

Special Mirotic!

2009-09-22T01:18:00.001+08:00

It's 1.20am now but I have something to share...

Mirotic - Special Ver: Totally awesome combination. Love the rap ^o^

2009-09-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう...？

Insomnia.

2009-09-20T21:53:00.001+08:00

You know - that I love you.
Can't you see my eyes.
There's only one, the real slow.
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The path that I'm running is love, love, love, love
But on that path, it's all a trap, trap, trap, trap
The inescapable traps give my heart fear, fear, fear, fear
As if it's a swamp, swallowing my courage
Little by little I'm becoming smaller

The bright facial expression on the disappearing face
I'm afraid that you'll turn your back and ignore my confession

Laying my head on my needle-like worries
I pretend to sleep though I can't
Because of the thoughts about you that are more life-like than dreams
In the end, I stay up all night

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Going on the path towards you even though it's lonely
Love, love, love, love
No matter how many time I fall
I'm going to get back up and keep going
But, but, but, but
Watching you and not getting enough sleep I got
Sick, sick, sick, sick
If I can't have your love then I can't get better
forever, forever, forever until I die...

I'll be waiting for your permission
No matter how many years, how many lifetimes
I'll be existing for you

Laying my head on my needle-like worries
I pretend to sleep though I can't
Because of the thoughts about you that are more life-like than dreams
In the end, I stay up all night

Feels like insomnia ah ah

This burning love
Even if it gets wet in the tears that fall like tears from the longing
It doesn't grow cold everyday

I bite my lips
I pretend to sleep though I can't
Because of the thoughts about you that are more life-like than dreams
In the end, I stay up all night

Feels like insomnia ah ah

2009-09-17T16:18:00.003+08:00

Annyeong all ^^ I'm in school now, after a horrible Maths coaching session. It was like, almost 2 hours with Mircia, Firdaus, Hazira and May Ann...and Miss Ang. Actually ut wasn't that bad, I never got scolded xD Haha she wasn't that fierce to us after all, really patient. She sacrificed her time to take over our class and she's still busy after that, and I'm right here blogging. Thanks ^^ Thanks to Hazira and May Ann for teaching me too :D

Lol, I'm giving a thank-you speech -.-

You must be wondering why I'm so..different today to stay back for no reason and even blogging. I always go home right after school and I'm staying back today cos...I'm waiting for Jae (Hyukjae or Jaejoong? Guess (; ) to come and fetch me, heheh.

Spent some time watching Super Junior's Intimate Note yesterday. Yeah yeah I know I'm very late, but why would I watch someone's show which I wasn't interested in that time? Man, they're ever so entertaining and humourous...although there were only 8 members who attended, it was still nice to watch ^^ Hyukjae ar Hyukjae <3 and Sungmin is so adorable xD If you have spare time, just try watching it (on YT, where else), no disappointment ;D

Btw, I heard someone listening to LaChaTa in the LRT lift today x)

My Fair Lady has started on MioTV, yay :D it's on every weekday night, hopefully I can set aside some time to watch it. Hopefully it works well everytime too. Oh oh oh, the exciting part about yesterday...lucky me caught the Seoul ad with TVXQ, SJ and SNSD inside!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I also watched GD performing Heartbreaker on Music Bank :D Watching all these on TV feels really different from just watching from the comp screen.

Okay, short wordy post. Why isn't Jae here yet..? Off to watch silent vids, I'm supposed to turn off the volume here and wait T.T

P/S. The two, erhm, girls beside me, please stop your blabbering and horrible singing.

Why can't they stop their flaunting..? I'm freaking sick of it.

2009-09-15T17:09:00.002+08:00

Been very into Super Junior (and Hyukkie!) nowadays ^o^

So sorry for not updating for sucha long time D:

God, Maths nowadays is really tough and intense T.T I don't think my Maths will improve in any way even if I mug like hell. Anyway, as usual, Firdaus almost never fails to ask TVXQ questions or blabber about them every time I step into the classroom each morning, lol. What a warm welcome ^o^ Today, he asked how's TVXQ's lawsuit going on, haha.

Laming around..

Posing with new hairstyle with Cheryl :D (ignore my handphone pouch please)

Death glare omg, HANDSOMEEEEE! But please eat more, my Hero dear D:

Another legendary Yoochun pose. :D

Hubby caught messaging, erhm, me, during last year's GDA :x

Leeteuk and Hyukjae being cute with Mirotic! I know this was pretty long time ago, but it's too funny not to be shared! 1:04 - Hyukkie caught messaging me (again)! And he's so cute singing Junsu's parts, what great friends :D Leeteuk's expression is priceless at the rap LOL, he looks like he's on a roller coaster!!!

I've been waiting for so long..

Hyukkie <3

2009-09-10T22:30:00.003+08:00

I just finished watching HTTG...

AND IT'S WORKING PERFECTLY ON TVANTS!!! :DDD

Yunho looks so good in the drama even though I can hardly understand anything and he's acting a character with no drive, haha. I've finished watching my AATVXQ3 DVDs too, like finally! Love Min's dog, sooooo tiny & cute! And Su's dog looks so smart and very hyper, just like the owner himself ^o^ Jae's one is really lazy, rofl! Ho's Siberian Husky is really obedient, but it looks really fierce. Just like the owner too hahaha!! Chun's one is quite obedient too, it kept pulling his hand furthur & furthur, lol.

Paris and Milan has ended ): Love the characters man, great job guys ;D Hoping for a second series!

And I just had my fringe cut...I want my hair to be straightened, but Mum said she can't find the hair product anywhere T.T And doing my hair outside is really exp, guess I just have to give it up T.T

And TOMORROW IS THE DAY. God. God. God. Please bless Rising Gods of the East. ):

Pics pics pics, long time no see! Let's start with charismatic Junsu ~

You want me, baby Xiahtic.

Jaejoong and Yoochun. The couple I've been going crazy over...

My god, Yoochun has such a slim waist o.o

You've taught me how to support each other, how to watch over each other, and that I'm not alone.

Sweet Jaejae just bought something for me today ^o^

JJ: *Knocks* heyo my darling! Guess what's this!
Me: Pressie? ^^

JJ: Yup. For you my love :D *Hugs*
Me: Oh why my dear, thank you so much! *Hugs back*

Sorry for taking sucha long time to post these outdated Bigeastation pics, lol. Ahh, my Shinki dorkies <3

Here's the HQ ver. of Colors ~Melody & Harmony~ :

Soulmates still look as good as ever <333 Love the part when they were painting the walls!

Praying throughout the night. Always keep the faith.

2009-09-09T21:28:00.004+08:00

I'm having mixed feelings right now.

I'm happy cos...

HEADING TO THE GROUND IS FINALLY AIRING!!!!!!!

I'm sad cos...

You guessed it, TVants sucks. DOESN'T WORK OMG. It was at first, then it started lagging. 10 minutes ago it successfully connected and played the starting - Ara was in a car and Yunho was behind, LOL! Then it stopped. When it played again, some wedding woman was crying and Yunho looks fed up..and he kicked the door and Ara got shocked. Lagged and lagged..and she quickly turned it off or something and looks relieved. DIDN'T GET TO SEE YUNHO OPPA'S REACTION!

Heard the CPR scene is in the first episode, OMG. Ahhh missed out everything!!

Oh god I hear something!

From my TVants. Yet again, it buffers like crazy, I hope for it to work but IT STOPS. Gahhh -.-

Someone please upload the episode with Eng sub soon, I'm dying to watch it T.T

P/S. WORKS ALREADY!! But only for the last few mins...oppa was so handsome when he looked devastatingly into the mirror! Hopefully it works again tomorrow! The only thing is...I missed the CPR part T.T But nvm, anticipating everything tomorrow :D

2009-09-08T22:33:00.002+08:00

Went to Clement's house to do History proj...I'm so sorry for letting them wait, but I hate the freaking asking+rushing. Damn you guys! Very bad day there. 3 members (there are 6 members, but we did separately), yet none of them offered to fetch me back to the LRT station. It's my first time there yet they're so unhelpful. Damn them!!!!!!!!!!!! -.- And to think I did most of the meet-up details and project. I shall be magnanimous for this time round since they don't know my phobia of getting lost (except for my readers) and as Jae's wife, I need to stop holding grudges. ^^

Perhaps I should learn how to calm myself down by thinking of Yunho oppa. Works most of the times. (:

And oh, Tanya couldn't come on Monday ): Damn, I was expecting. Hate fucking broken promises.

Continued watching my AATVXQ3 DVDs...yeah yeah I know I'm very slow, I wanna watch them slowly k! Left 2 more discs to go! Till now, Disc6 is my fav, the one with their variety shows and all...just that they shouldn't be cut halfway -.- They were really enjoyable though!

TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The day I've been waiting for (other than the lawsuit date)..Yunho-shii's drama Heading to the Ground is finally gonna broadcast!!! I'm deciding to watch it on TVants, thank goodness I didn't uninstall it...although I can't understand anything, hopefully everything will be working fine tomorrow and I'll watch it for the sake of my charming leader ^o^

Oh, I heard Heaven's Postman is airing this month?! Wth, why do they keep changing the airing dates? It's only ONE episode of my Jaejae yet I need to wait so long T.T HTTG is really fast compared to HP! (lol, sorry Hero!! Nothing to do with you!!)

What am I gonna do tomorrow? Update TVXQ book, read library books, cut fringe (hopefully Mum remembers), spend time with Jaejoong hubby....AND WATCH HEADING TO THE GROUND! ;D

Miss You.

2009-09-07T13:41:00.000+08:00

Miss You.

Baby come again I feel you
Listen to my heart I love you
My heart so I know you want me
Baby stay with me
I miss you

What I saw on the sidewalk across the street
was that figure of yours
Even though our time together has stopped
I suddenly started to move
I ran and chased after you
but the crowd of people kept you out of reach

If only that day I hadn't met you, I wouldn't be having these feelings
Even though it ended and we passed each other at that street corner
I still can't forget you, your fingers, your hair, or your tears
I remember the pain from that time, don't let me down

Baby come again I feel you
Listen to my heart I love you
My heart so I know you want me
Baby stay with me I miss you

Back then we were drifting apart and we became less honest
But even now, I can say I won't let you go,
I'll keep believing
I'll call out your name
I'll embrace you once again here at this place

If you're also alone right now
I want to find you because I'll protect you where ever you are
We'll wrap ourselves together in the busy evening streets
These feelings are racing through me and I want them to reach you, I take you back

If only you'd turn your eyes back at me
I want to smile
So don't change
Oh I miss you

If only that day I hadn't met you, I wouldn't be having these feelings
Even though it ended and we passed each other at that street corner
I still can't forget you, your fingers, your hair, or your tears
I remember the pain from that time, don't let me down

If you're also alone right now
I want to find you because I'll protect you where ever you are
We'll wrap ourselves together in the busy evening streets
These feelings are racing through me and I want them to reach you, I take you back

Baby come again I feel you
Listen to my heart I love you
My heart so I know you want me
Baby stay with me
I miss you

Melody & Harmony.

2009-09-06T21:50:00.006+08:00

Jejung & Yuchun - Colours ~Melody & Harmony~ MV

This ver. isn't of very good quality, but I love the MV.

Omo, fuck this shit. My WHOLE two paras of comments regarding the MV have DISAPPEARED. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

*Stops breathing*

On the last day of school, Firdaus asked me to SMS and inform him the outcome on TVXQ's lawsuit...have I nurtured a fanboy? xD And on Thursday, while the class was in our groups discussing History proj details, my group was getting so freaking noisy (more than half of the members are boys) that I slammed the table...and the whole class was in silence.

One slam from me makes 30+ people shut up. Another reason why you shouldn't make me flare up..? Haha jk xD Terry broke the silence by asking, "Who did that?" And someone from my group replied, "JR..." The other members were trying to calm me down, LOL. I wasn't angry, just trying to scare them, and I didn't know the outcome would be better than I expected haha.

Wayyyy back in Nov 2008........

"Everyone, I need your attention. I have an important announcement to make."

"I will be officially engaged to Joreen next month. She's a 13-year-old fan from Singapore & yada yada yada. I will invite my close friends & relatives & maybe some mature fans to my wedding in January. Wait for my invitations!!! ^o^"

"Why sudden silence...? I'm sorry for the sudden announcement but I bet you guys don't want me to keep such an important piece of news to all of you. I love my fiancee taller than the trees, more than the beats my heart pumps a day, higher than the skies...ahhh!!!"
*Nearby people start throwing confetti & congratulating him*

*MC snatches a bouquet of flowers from a fan & hands it to Jae*

Jae: "Oh my, thank you, thank you! Thanks for the blessings! I'll love and take care of her with every fibre of my being!"
MC: "Congrats, this was so unexpected but we wish you will live in bliss forever!"

MC: "Three cheers & three cheers & three cheers for Joreen & Jaejoong! Hip hip-"
The rest: "HURRAY!"
Jaejoong: *Smiles in bliss*

Jae: "Please stop it, my friend..I'm so happy that I can't stop smiling!"
MC: "Sure, we shall! Let us start the wonderful performace after this surprise - DONG BANG SHIN KI, MIROTIC!"

JJ: "Come on, my members! Let me celebrate by revealing a bit...xD"
CM: "You're gonna get it, hyung..."

I ordered this a few days ago:

Junsu's Asmama necklace...finally I bought some Junsu merchandise online, lol.

There's some SISTIC voting thing going on...and we can VOTE FOR TVXQ TO COME TO SINGAPORE OMG!!! Arashi is currently leading (-.-)...how can our gods lose to them!? Even if we win, it's not guaranteed that they'll come but at maybe SISTIC will organise some promotional event? xD

Tanya might be coming over tomorrow to watch AATVXQ3 DVDs ^o^ Now waiting for her reply...

Comp's always lagging like hell, but I can't bring myself to delete too much TVXQ stuffs T.T Darn...

すべての場合は、ばかのような夢は、決して実際の生活の中でそれを満たすことができます。 Hahahaha!
^Badmouthing someone ^^

2009-08-31T19:52:00.002+08:00

Wow. I received 3 personal messages today regarding TVXQ's first hearing from fans xD

And I'm the happiest fan ever cos...

MY AATVXQ3 IS IN MY HANDS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my oh my I had such an enjoyable time watching the DVDs...so enjoyable that I skipped today's Teachers' Day celebration at school (& of course I'm gonna fake sick) xD Soulmate didn't go either, but not for the same reason as mine. I spent the whole night yesterday and today afternoon watching random discs, but if only Tanya were here, then it'd be much more fun D: But I kept telling myself not to finish watching them cos I NEED to leave some for the holidays!!

Yesterday's radio interview was like...a dream come true. SO EMBARRASSING OMG. When I was a FRH fan & I tried to call in a million times, I never succeeded, but now that I'm a Cassie & through just one email, I got selected!! The wonderful opportunities that TVXQ gives me - express myself through local media, learn more languages, well-written compos+first time getting top in whole level...ahhh. Can't imagine life without them.

I received one SMS every 10 seconds, so sorry to all of you whom I replied late! Plus I was chatting with Tanya on the phone and watching TV all at the same time and feeling damn high...heheh. Even Miss Xie heard it, omg. I got a shock when I saw her message..and she says I'm one crazy fan, even promoting my beloved TVXQ to teachers LOL.

Arrogance sucks. Too bad there are too many of this kind of people existing.

2009-08-30T13:52:00.002+08:00

TVXQ's group activities have already been suspended.

Sigh. Yesterday was the last day of their group activities T.T All the best for their solo activities anyway, I'll miss you TVXQ D:

Found the best article ever on SYC.

TVXQ sings “I got you~ooo, Under my skin,” and dances. When the buttons on the shirts that cling onto their bodies cannot handle their powerful moves and burst, U-Know Yunho’s well-developed and chiseled pectoral muscles are shown. Fans from all over Korea, who may have had ill feelings towards the long stretch of Japanese activities, act as though the group had never left and stare at their TV and even go up to the TV screen and stroke it. I’m talking about the comeback stage of that happened after the album’s release last December. Fans found something a little odd about TVXQ during this stage. Although the five members’ faces were the same, it was as though their faces had been stuck on someone else’s body. This was because of their ‘muscles’.

TVXQ’s thin and muscular bodies are completely different from SM Entertainment’s preceding idol groups. The direction that the members of TVXQ are headed is being influenced by the Japanese activities they have been carefully and diligently doing. In Japan these days, their is a ‘Hosomacho’ or ‘thin muscle’ trend blazing through the nation. The biggest reason for this trend is because the majority of young Japanese women prefers the thin muscled hosomacho look over the heavily muscled gorimacho (gorilla macho) look.

What am I talking about? There are probably going to be some people who tell me that this trend has been around for a while with the majority of singers in Johnny’s Entertainment and with the majority of males in Tokyo having a thin muscle body structure. But what they are talking more about skinny guys who look as though they have muscles because they are skinny, not the ‘thin muscle’ look. But to think that TVXQ is just one of the many hosomacho groups is a big mistake. This is because the popularity of Tohoshinki, as they call themselves in Japan, is so great and out of this world that it cannot be fully comprehended or understood in Korea.

If we divide the dominating Japanese male idol groups into three categories, the first would be ‘role Lolita’, groups comprised of pretty boys, the second would be ‘Yankees’, groups comprised of members who have a bad boy vibe to them, and the third would be the TVXQ style. The TVXQ style’s popularity can be properly felt in Japan’s host clubs. Koreans may connect the words host or hostess with adult clubs and see these words with a negative outlook, but to many young, handsome and popular college students in Japan, it is the most preferred part-time job.

Different from Korea’s hosts, Japan’s hosts serve only alcohol and there is a different term for those who provide sexual intercourse and they are called ‘Urisen’. In these host clubs that can easily be found in Shinjuku’s Gabukicho area, the pictures of the hosts in the clubs tell women what kind of style each host is. Before, most of the people in the pictures copied the style of Johnny’s Entertainment’s idol groups. But now, at least one or two hosts in every club very conspicuously copies the style of one of the members of TVXQ.

In this area, there was once a time where the most manly people were nabe (a girl dressed up as a guy or a trans gender female). with their thin, pretty bodies. But now many Japanese women are asking for the hosomacho style, men who are not only pretty, but are also manly, and who are not only skinny, but has muscles. The TVXQ wind is blowing through the clubs of Gabukicho.

Since many Korean idol groups are popular not only in Korea but all of Asia, many Koreans may think that TVXQ’s popularity is similar to that of other celebrities. Shall we delve deeper to see just how popular TVXQ is in Japan? TVXQ’s most recent Japanese single sold almost 200K copies in one week. This sets TVXQ with the second highest first week sales in their agency, Japan’s biggest company Avex.

The only group above TVXQ is the 14-member group Exile, the group that received the highest award from the Japanese Record Association and the group that even creates big changes in society with their raging popularity. This means that TVXQ’s first album sales beats that of the female leaders of Japanese pop, ‘Amuro Namie’. ‘Hamasaki Ayumi’ and ‘Koda Kumi’. This is a feat that not even popular star ‘BoA’ has achieved. These are the kind of top singers we can compare TVXQ to now.

But I am not basing their popularity on album sales only. TVXQ has set a huge record of being on Japan’s representative music chart ‘Oricon Chart’ as 1st on weekly single sales six times already. Since the year 2000, the number of stars who have attempted to enter the Japanese market is enormous, with stars such as S.E.S, Sugar, Park Junghyun, Rain, Lee Soo Young, Se7en, SS501, Ryu Siwon, Park Yongha, Lee Byunghun, Yoonha, K, Sunmin, Big Bang and Super Junior.

But the only singers who have reached first on Oricon’s weekly single charts are BoA (once) and TVXQ (six times). TVXQ also succeeded in being invited to hold two concerts in July at the Tokyo Dome which is considered the Dream Stage, even to Japanese singers. This has never been completed by any other Korean singer before.

But the Bible sends a message, “Prophets do not get respect from their homelands.” For some odd reason, TVXQ’s outstanding achievements do not seem to be reported or praised in Korea. Also, it is sad to see that TVXQ’s success of almost selling 200K copies of their single was buried under the dispute between SM Entertainment and three members of TVXQ (Micky Yoochun, Xiah Junsu, YoungWoong Jaejoong) and the disbandment rumors that followed it.

They are not something something ’sama’ (like Yonsama) who were washed ashore by the Hallyu Wave. No, they even asked all Japanese media agencies not to associate the word ‘Hallyu’ with them (even asking for news articles to be pulled down if the word was used in relation to them), to show that they wished to succeed with their own powers and were able to become widely known in Japan. TVXQ had to erase their nationality in order to gain the acceptance from the Japanese population.

The rumors of disbandment at the height of their popularity has become a hot topic of conversation in the Japanese music industry. Japanese media has been created a daily special to update everyone about what’s happening in Korea with regards to TVXQ, and this has caused Avex’s CEO to come forward and give an explanatory statement to clam the Japanese fans. He announced that TVXQ’s Japanese activitees would continue regardless of what was happening in Korea and he decided to announce this himself. This has never happened before.

It seems as though the way Korean agencies set the income division when writing up the contract has surprised the people of Japan who are used to the Japanese agencies’ way of working that gives monthly salaries that may change. Since the first official event TVXQ held after the disbandment rumors came out was in Japan and not Korea, the source of such rumors, with the Fireworks Festival Concert, the Japanese media was more vigilant when it came to reporting the issue than the Korean media.

Therefore, whether they wanted this or not, this case has opened TVXQ up to a wider fan base including the younger generation. YoungWoong Jaejoong, who is the most popular amongst the members in Japan, was even seen in a paparazzi scandal magazine that only extremely famous Japanese celebrities appear in.

Although the situation in Korea is a complete mess, TVXQ might be able to take one step further in their Japanese activities through this happening. But they must once more grab hold of their Korean fans. There are already rumors that the ‘light fanbase’ is ready to embrace the new 6 member male idol group SM Entertainment is preparing.

As faithful as Korean fans are, they are also able to turn their backs on a singer very quickly. If even the fans who used to embrace them turn their backs on TVXQ, the group will become the prophets who are not respected in their homelands.

source: [GQ Magazine+DNBN]
translation credits: jeeelim5@tohosomnia.net
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Turn their backs on a singer quickly...? The 1-year-7-months absence thing might have proved something but that isn't everything. Think about the recent petition held by the Korea fans. And my hubby in PAPARAZZI SCANDAL MAG?! I've not seen it before, but I'm happy to know that he appears in a mag that only extremely Jap popular artistes appear in xD

I must have been a Japanese in my previous life or something, why do I have so much common with them..as mentioned, majority of young Japanese women prefer thinly-muscled guys over the heavily-muscled ones, same for me lol (compare Jiro, TOP, JJ). I think TVXQ debuting into Japan industry was a smart move, the industry there allows them to be more recognised. The hard work and pain TVXQ has gone through while debuting has paid off, and this is where they are standing now.

But anyway, this is a really well-written article though some fans might disagree with some parts, but nonetheless we agree with almost all the points. Good job author ;)

AATVXQ3 arrived today!! But that blogshop owner hasn't confirmed my attendance yet, later I go then she never bring, damn it -.- Now I don't think I'm going, gahhh...

2009-08-29T23:32:00.002+08:00

This has got to be one of Yoochun's most legendary poses ever.

Stupid moronic Kareen drank my drink and not admitting. Coward. Worse for that other one, eat my food right in front of me. Shameless. Stop thinking I'll forgive people just because of their small actions.

And I need to emphasize on this. Why is everyone so scared of me!? On Thurs, Guo An told me to call Guan Ming over cos he didn't want to. I turned my head, stared at GM and he came over immediately. On Wed, Guo An automatically asked someone else for fullscap paper cos he knows I wouldn't lend (he has it but still asks -.-). Today, Mum said I was rushing her to go home just because I was staring (or glaring?) at her. For Pete's sake, I didn't even say a word man. Zzz.

Went over to Aunt's today as usual, shopped for a longer time than usual cos arcade was so fun! Haha. Lost to Cheryl at gun game but won her at car game :DDD Bought Epop magazine and borrowed so many books that I needed my Mum's card to borrow -.- How hardworking I am...

AND MASS EMAIL REGARDING AATVXQ3 WILL BE SENT TOMORROW!! Oh man oh man I'm as excited for this as the interview...gah I wanna get it in my hands..

Handsome Yunho oppa ;D

Yeah!

(The girl is me, with dyed hair & dressing very different from my usual style)
Hero: "OMO MY DEAREST, NEORAGO!!!"
Me: "Shhh dear, I don't wanna see your fans giving me fed up looks..."
Hero: "Oops, okay...talk to you when we get home ^o^"

Hubby's arms... *o*

Took these during Science experiment on Friday with Guo An as my partner...he went to mix all of them together after the experiment ended -.- He even poured ethanol on his on hands (and also other people) and said he was very cooling...lol -.-

Btw, Tanya and I have decided to name ourselves Soulmates :DDDDD We're KNOWN as that in school anyway, we're always seen with each other before & after school hahahaha. And almost everywhere we go too...

Can't wait for tomorrow!

2009-08-28T17:32:00.002+08:00

Yes933 Ha Ben Ying recording's done on Wed, confirmed details:

Sunday, 31/8/09
YES933, 10PM

It's just a really short interview, do tune in if possible ^^

HQ ver. of Colors~ Melody & Harmony~

I need this song like NOW, so pretty!!! I love Jae's for you~ for you~ and Yoochun forever~forever~ parts the most...whether Soulmate's singing live or the actual recording, they always sound so amazing :DDD

2009-08-25T18:52:00.002+08:00

Gahh, Jae's always looking SOOOOOO good !@#$%^&*(- Ahh, the love of my life. *Everyone pukes*

2009-08-24T21:43:00.005+08:00

Heard that Yunho bought a new house...OMG it looks so luxurious and beautiful! Tanya, you movin' in there? xD

Got back my compo titled "The Day I Got Heartbroken". Not telling you the storyline, come to me personally if you wanna read LOL. Miss Xie told me to send my favourite and best compo to her. Didn't I send her some that time already......

Whatever, I'm waiting for Tanya to come back from her dinner to continue our crazy MSN convo that includesa all TVXQ members & random Super Junior members, HAHAHA. Come back come back Tanya...

Soulmateness ~

Tohoshinki's (or Soulmate's..?) next single - COLORS ~ Melody & Harmony ~ Lol, the words totally contrast with the background, but as long as there's Jaejoong..okay, TVXQ, it's likable ^^ Recalling the song, it's so sweet and blissful, wanna hear the full HQ soon!! :D

LQ version of the song...really meaningful.

Sweetie' cutie' ^^

HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!!!

Hubby with Naoya...Jae is wearing a Yukata (summer version of kimono)!!! SO SEXY OMG. And that Naoya guy, please don't get too intimate with my husband...

With Yoochun ^^

Hero sniffing and blowing his nose cos he misses me too much T.T Need a hug, Jae?

Yes yes stop rubbing your eyes, THIS IS JAEJOONG! K, I'm overreacting -.- Isn't he pretty..?

Current handphone wallpaper ^^

Hahahaha Bigeastation pics..

Hwaiting, TVXQ.

Darn, needa do my crap Chinese compo+study for tomorrow's tests (while waiting). Annyeong.

P/S. To the random tagger, thank you very much ^^

P/P/S. Happy Birthday Jiro :DDDD May all your wishes come true!!!

P/P/P/S. OMG I'M BEING SELECTED TO DO A PHONE INTERVIEW ON HA BEN YING OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I was jumping around and controlling myself when I saw the email, so exciting, it's my first time on air <3 Ahhh, I'm gonna talk about why I love TVXQ man, so damn exciting!!!! Catch my short interview probably this Sunday (31/8) at 10pm please, thank you! ^^

2009-08-23T18:12:00.002+08:00

To tell the truth...

I didn't finish watching Tae Guk Gi movie last time, LOL. Couldn't sit still and bring myself to watch the whole thing..

But anyway, someone has cut that part, so I no need to strain my poor eyes and look for hubby:

He's there around 1:26 to 2:26...I WATCHED THIS PART AND I DIDN'T SPOT HIM?! Wow, luckily I didn't watch the war scenes..I would have gone blind -.- But you must admit that part is had to spot my Jaejae - he looks different, they didn't close-up, the camera slided past him...nothing to help spot!! Haha..

Such selfish and rude people. Tsk. You claim yourself as some Korean stuff fan yet you don't know a word. Ignorant pabo! HAHAHAHA YOU SUCK, FINAL.

2009-08-23T17:34:00.003+08:00

True relationships & friendships.

I doubt they really exist.

Trusting them, believing yourself, ignoring your instincts. But I only land up being hurt.

Where has the long-lost purity gone to? Tell me, someone.

Time and again, I tell myself to get over with.

To think I'll be stabbed in the heart once again.

The amount of relationships I've ended. Does the problem lie with me?

Am I too cold? Too suspicious? Am I an ingrate? Am I worrying too much?

The blood continues to flow and my mind is in a whirl.

Do I really have to bring myself to accept this? This harsh reality that the good sides of people do not exist anymore?

Do I have to believe that promises will always be broken, lies are constantly being leaked & found out, trusted someone so much & find that I'll be back stabbed eventually & I'll face the consequences myself?

Do I dig my own grave & carve the path I walk?

Or is it true that humans' hearts are like that?

Appearance vs Reality.

The horrendous sides of humans are masked and covered up so perfectly by people that I'm shocked by what's going on.

Only fake appearances exist now. The appearance which has surfaced.

I walk happily on the sunshine-filled and brightly-coloured path. My optimism was short-lived. I find myself falling at the end.

In the sea of crowd I'm in, I'm lost.

The reason why I'm beginning to close the door of my heart already.

Can't bring myself to trust anyone.

Friends forever. That's...untrue.

2009-08-22T23:56:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone...

It's 11.58pm now & it's raining outside...whata nice feeling ^^ I can't say goodbye cos I love you... xD

Anyway, shall not update about yesterday's first hearing. But the result will be released on Sept 12, second last day of holiday...and the day I will be fretting T.T Praying for TVXQ till now.

We changed seats during Chinese class on Friday. Teacher asked the ones at the back to move in front, excluding me cos I'm in the middle HAHA. So half the class moved in front, now one row consists of like a FEW boys (ard. 3-4) and ONE girl. Very few girls in my class, heheh. In front of me is still Guo An, behind me's Derek, and beside me is Terry...but at least Edwina & Yun Kuan are sitting closer now :D

Ahhh, the news I've been waiting for...my AATVXQ3 HAS ARRIVED IN SINGAPORE YAY!!! But the blogshop owner just emailed me to say that the batch has been detained by the customs or whatever..cos they need to be taxed -.- So need to wait even longer...hope to get it soon :DDD

Didn't go over to relatives' today cos Cheryl & Clifford aren't there T.T So I stayed at home &　spent my time watching a local drama - I Not Stupid 2! Watched like 8 episdoes at one go, now going on 9 ;D Recalled my younger days of chasing Joshua & Shawn, especially Joshua...and till now, I still find him so good-looking :0 My condolences to him regarding his mother's demise.

Now, I bet you guys must be missing my usual pic spams (wahahaha)...haven't blogged a decent post in sucha long time.

Lala sitting on my comp table - absolute cuteness :D

Overdue photos taken with Cheryl at Bishan last time...so you can stop returning to that post & waiting for updates, lol.

Took these while I was bored today. Not to be bragging or what, but Tanya said I resembled Changmin oppa like this, heheh.

Best in English cert :D

TVXQ TVXQ TVXQ!!!

Soulmate-ness, haha. The Yoosu-ness in this set of behind-the-scenes is even more overwhelming... xD

Jaejoong prepared this for me (You guys must have missed my rambling about Hubby, eh?) despite his busy schedule <3 Awwww Jaejae!! *Hugs*

JJ: *GET LOST ALL OF YOU, I want wifey Joreen to see me, don't block me!!*
CM: *-Laughs- Duh, I bet she wants to see me more..."
JJ: *Why would she? I'm the one she misses, look at the number of messages we've sent to each other...*
CM: *Once I flash my pearly whites she'd faint, just wait & see, hyung! -Smirks-*
JS: ...

Couple time ~~~

From Uninvited Guest...

JS: *YOOCHUN, PLEASE MARRY ME! -Pushes away others-*
YC: *Uhh..do you have to be THAT desperate?*
JS: *Just accept the me who can't live without you Chunnie...

JJ: *I told you to stop contacting my dearest Joreen right? Why are you still doing that? -Attacks-*
CM: *Fair competition, hyung!!*
JJ: *What competition I'm already married to her... -.-*

Yunho-shii's Evisu shirt...looks so good, I want it T.T If this isn't enough, there're other designs as well!! Heard that sales are really good after his endorsement :D

Photo from Leader Ho's drama Heading to the Bare Ground...he looks damn handsome here!*gushes*

Outdated but funny shot from some A-Nation show..OMG I can't stop laughing at Yoochun's expression!!

TVXQ+Cassiopeia = eternal love.

Will probably be watching Cha Tae Hyun's new movie with Cheryl+Clifford on Clifford's birthday! :D

你。别以为看不起我你的妹就告诉自己比人家强大 - 无耻。

AATVXQ3 - TVXQ Saipan Quiz

2009-08-21T16:58:00.001+08:00

TVXQ Saipan Quiz

Omo this is hilarious! First hearing today, but they never fail to make me laugh xD

First hearing.

2009-08-19T23:02:00.002+08:00

2 tests tomorrow and I've only studied a bit, darn.

Had Chinese oral today, totally messed up first part of the passage because I was so distracted for some reason -.- Convo was fine. Waited for Tanya with Mircia after our turns and we went to Comics together...long time never go, the piece of bad news we received was:

The prices were all increased.

Damn it, no more frequent visits now T.T Posters are so tempting, new pack of poker cards, pretty pencil boards, new clocks, nice laminated cards...all so nice, but exp -.- Nvm, I need to set aside money for lots of stuff (movie, shipping fee, tee) anyway xD Then borrowed a new Chinese novel from library+Teenage mag, can't wait to read them :D

Anyway, my comp has been REALLY laggy cos of all my increasing pics and music, heheh xD Hate the lagginess.

Btw, SYC banners are so pretty, happy belated first anniversary! ^o^

Something wrong with Photobucket today aaaargh! Photos next time, mianhae again D:

First hearing, 2 more days.

Jaejoong is hot.

2009-08-18T21:11:00.003+08:00

Random pic from Bigeastation - Yunho holding Cyborg Girl DVD :DDD

Man, I have tons of pics to share...but first, let me wish:

Mum, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Don't say you my card is lame, you know you love (got!) it! Heheh. May good fortune always be with you and bless your life, free from illnesses, stay young & pretty (remember your former model job?) and again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Saeng-il chukahamnida to G-Dragon too :DDD Great job in leading BigBang! ^o^

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Random stuff...I saw my customer in the newspapers on Saturday, I had no idea she was a teen actress! I remembered she had to come all the way from Pasir Ris and she had to wait for me cos I was late T.T And she bought Big Bang stuff from me, we also chatted through SMS and I found out she also likes TOP :D She's really pretty and also taller, lol. She won several beauty pageants before too..and she reminds of Go Ara(+another blogshop owner who I bought my Hero tee from) for some reason, haha. When I SMS-ed to tell her that I saw her in the papers, she remembered me xD All the best for your show, customer (not revealing her name!) :D

Heaven's Postman has been pushed back to late October AGAIN...but nvm, that's the most possible month that me and Jaejoong's first child will be BORN!!! Pardon me for the sudden announcement, but close pals like May Ann, Cheryl and Tanya know already, heheh xD

Hint: Jaejoong and me's first night on 16th Jan 2009! <3 src="http://i590.photobucket.com/albums/ss341/TVXQ_02/junjinyuibkk2.gif" border="0">
Coolest guy ever walking.

Mirotic album jacket photoshoot...HOT. *nosebleeds*

Okay I shall stop here for today. Comp's lagging -.-

Collecting my new tee this Friday, watching Scandal Family (with Cha Tae Hyun as male lead!) with Cheryl and probably Clifford too next week, and most importantly, await for my AATVXQ3. Can't wait to get it in my hands!!!!